Her Words.

2AM

2011-12-23T02:13:00.002+08:00

Surprisingly, I can still access this blog. This is somehow thrilling because this blog houses those years of adolescent angst and too much drama during those naive days. When I first started this blog, I was barely sixteen, yet to reach the Sweet Sixteen mark and guess what, here I am typing as an adult. Atleast according to the law. I've past a couple of mildstones in life now; O levels, A levels, part-time jobs and new friends, new crushes and new drama. Lol some things just keep coming back to us don't they, but I'm not gonna divulge much. Some things are better off unsaid.

Whacky Wednesday

2011-04-20T15:28:00.003+08:00

This blog is resurrected. Heh.

This was taken last year, it was a Primary 6B class gathering after like 8years? Hmmm

This was taken in 2008, we were all fresh out of JC.

This is all of us 2months back, all grown up (:

Two Years Later

2011-04-19T19:19:00.004+08:00

Wow, I have access to this blog again. I guess I will leave this place for the memories.

This is my first blog, and it contains recounts of personal experience, both good and bad. If anyone actually bothered to read right from the very first entry, you will realise that I've grown. So much have changed. This place contains the thoughts of a then, 16-year-old me, and now a 20-year-old me. I'm on my way to hitting the big twenty-one. Welcome to adulthood dear self.

I am certain I've lost all my readers but it still feels nice to know that this blog is here to stay.

Lets keep the memories with us.

Hello Earthlings!

2009-04-04T13:09:00.002+08:00

I said the other day I won't be updating, and will be focusing on http://slumber-closet.livejournal.com but I'm too bored, so here I am.

I bloghopped and saw Zhanhong's blog, where he showed the different stages of his life, and it occurred to me how time flies, and I mean it. Time passed so quickly, we have all grown up.

In 2003, the first time I set foot in JSS, I swear I hated the school to the core. Only 10 from Juying Primary came to Jss, and none were my close friends. The first friend I made in Jss, was Atiqah. haha. We were like the 'tallest' in class then, and I have yet to warm up to the classmates. Slowly, I made friends, like Siti Fatimah, Fadhilah, Sabrina, and yes, Amelie Lee Jing Wen. I don't know how things went, but all that matters were, the friends I made then, are still my friends and will always be. We've seen each other grow, from the selenge old days to present us. Fat is always warm and nice, and shares stories with me (: Fad tells her mom everything, and I think, I can be her mom's friend too, or her family friend, since I've warmed up to her family. Amelia is the first chinese close friends, who is anti-social, too practical to be true, loves technology, stone-hearted (haha), kind of the opposite of me. Sabrina is one of the best to bitch with, haha, its real funny how we 'talk about people' and she is hardworking.

Friends from Red Cross goes a long way. Celeste, whose English I always make fun of, but still she is a good friend. Jessica, the one I always tease for her oh-so-colourful bras, which stood out in our school house t-shirt. Sarah Lee Shi Qi, who is at time kancheong, and naggy, and annoying, friendship with her is a Love-Hate one, but still, we're still friends, and will still be. Aeryanna, the one whose personality differs greatly from me, but still, time with her was fun, especially when we gang up to disturb/annoy Sarah. Not forgetting friends like Linda, who I see everyday now, because we work together. LowZuhui who is always giving mean but hilarious comments, discriminating people's size, who is just fun to talk to anytime any day. The juniors, like Syafiqah,Derong,Naf, Dorisa, Awaliah, Fara, who were the hyper ones, and of interesting characters. I miss Red Cross a hell lot, I do, despite the proposals and intensive planning we have to do a instructors, despite the scoldings and punishment we got as cadets. I miss everyone so much.

In 2005, we had UG Camp, Weijian was in my group, and I was a strict leader. LOL. I don't know how it went, but he's my godbrother, and he an undiscovered philosopher (: Conversations with him, are nice, maybe sometimes complicated, because, his thinking is may more matured as compared to his age.

In PJC, I had nice friends too. Nurul Syuhaidah, who understands things even I can't figure out, whose personality clashes with mine. lol. Sitt who is unique in her own ways, Ika the happy-go-lucky one. Yingmin, the Jap fangirl, Keyan the blur one, Chienhui the funny one, Deb, who marathons many many shows online. Weidi, Kuo Un, the guys in S09. Life in PJ was different from Jss, but the friends somehow lessen the 2years torture we went through.

The furthest from memory will be the primary school days, with Aqilah, Atiqah and Hanisah. I've lost contact with everyone except Aqilah, yes, I meet her atleast once a year, to go out, shop and just random things. I spend very little time with her, but I sure hope the friendship will last.

Reminiscence. When we were young, we were too eager to grow up, and now, we have grown, holding bittersweet memories in our hearts forever. The little regrets, the eyecandies in school, the scandals, the exam grades, the crushes, the moment-of-folly, everything has played a part in shaping us. I've learned, and will hold dear all the friendships I made.

Things money can buy, I've got a plenty. My mood has been like these, for the past few days.

Till then (: Bye.

2009-03-26T01:55:00.002+08:00

After not updating for more than a month, I am back. lol. I'm gonna let this blog remain as it is, because it holds precious memories. I'll continue blogging regularly, hopefully here.
Partially locked (: I'll post pictures here at times, to enlighten this blog. I'll come back when I want to, meanwhile, it will remain stagnant as it is.

Rubbish is the word of the month.

2009-02-12T18:19:00.003+08:00

6March. Possible date for the release of results.

I miss my long hair, yes i know, I chose to cut my hair.
Its just very very weird to go to work, without a ponytail. Lol.
Contemplating to switch jobs. Its a tough decision. The current workplace is pretty much interesting, because I chose to appreciate the nice things and ignore the rest.

Its getting to me, matters that I used to ignore, and bury myself in schoolwork.
However, this year is different, working is tiring but atleast we do not have homework to do.
And, everyone is busy working, so its just as hard to meet up.

"When its dark enough, you can see the stars"
Think about it. The bright sky will slowly evolve into a gloomy blue, and eventually black.
That's when the stars appear. Maybe its supposed to be that way, its too ambiguous.
We never know.

Oh well, the small steps we take might be too small to catch up with others.
Will it change? There's no answer to it.

Anyhow, Weijian kind of MIA.

Celebrating Fad's Birthday (:

2009-02-01T16:57:00.003+08:00

From Haji Lane, to MadJack to Clarke Quay, to acting drunk,
and frantically looking for a cab to fit 5 of us into it. The ones who did not consume any alcohol seemed more drunk than the one who had 'Flames'. Lol. Amelia even thought she lost her hp pouch in the retardedly funny cab-ride. There were many glitches but in conclusion, my plan kind of worked. Hehe.

Btw, my Livejournal is more alive, and facebook too, as compared to 'Blogger'.

2009-01-25T18:27:00.004+08:00

No Pulse. No Breathing.
Commence CPR!

Okay, I know this blog is dead.
I shall add a little life to it.
I've been working and slacking, reading, eat, gaining weight. -.-
Its the eve of Lunar New Year, and I'm at work.
Its pretty quiet here, since everyone is out celebrating, and no one wants to spend New Year in a hospital.

I can't upload photos, so it'll be just plain words of blabbering.
Anticipating the release of Alevel results, for better or worse.
I've made Plans A to Z to suit the outcome of the results.

This is the Last year I'll be a teen. When 2010 comes, it'll be the big TWO-ZERO.
The upcoming eleven years will be pretty eventful, depending on the path I'm heading to.
For now, lets just take one step at a time, if you know what I mean.

2008-12-10T10:08:00.005+08:00

Before exams end, we were looking forward to the freedom after As, but it is nothing that great really. 13days after As, I'm already working, after the 2-day job at Sitex Fair.

Officially an employee at NUH Emergency Medical Department.

I get to see blood everyday, and yesterday particularly, there was so many patients,

It was more like a restaurant running full house, except that hospitals can't turn down patients, while restaurants can.

I wonder if I can last for 6 months in this job. Maybe I can.

I'll just give it a try.

Starting work at 1pm. Awesome.

2008-11-22T12:20:00.002+08:00

YES. I HAVE NO MORE EXAMS. FINALLY.

2years 'imprisonment' is over.
I can shop, sleep, watch tv and rot as i wish.
FREEDOM. Lets forget and not think about the possible outcome of Alevels as yet.
Need to regain some humanity. and go crazy.

I need a job. money money money. yay.

#430

2008-09-26T10:29:00.002+08:00

Its beeen a loooong long time.

I have yet to post a proper entry since Mids.
As usual, the banal routines, study, eat sleep, watch tv.
Prelims wasn't as tormenting as Mids, but its too early to say.
Gotta wait for the results to conclude.

Some Alumni members came back to give us a talk, some motivations perhaps, and inspirations.
They mentioned, this is the worst, and the most trying period of ours live.
Hell yes, we have no life actually, but I'm looking on the bright side.

After As,
I shall get a job, go on a long holiday, after I've earned enough, go for an extreme makeover. HAHA. I will exercise MORE otherwise I'll turn into a whale. Have to regain the humanity lost in me, and meet up with people I haven't seen for a loooooooooong time.
Thats the gist of the infinite things I wish to do after As. Actually, every student taking their As will definitely have the loooooong lists of things to do, we need our lives back.

For now, its simply notes, lectures,tutorials.
I'm looking forward to Hari Raya also. hehe. One pathetic day for celebrations.

oh wel.. i'm out of here. (:

2008-08-24T14:31:00.001+08:00

All the best to those sec4s having Prelims, or gonna have Prelims tmr,
including WeiJian (:

My Prelims is in 2weeks, so no updates.
Hiatus, till As.

2008-07-12T12:20:00.002+08:00

1. The person who last tag you is: YingMin
2. Your relationship with him/her is: FRIEND =D
3. Your five impression of him/her: Sweet, Quiet, Creative, Artistic, interesting
4. The most memorable thing he/she had done for you: Eh. Help me print some GP ws? Lol. Going out to Henderson Waves
5. The most memorable thing he/she had said to you: Eh. I seriously forgot. Lol. Sorry Yingmin
6.If he/she become your lover, you will: be a LESBIAN. HAHAHAHAAHA
7. If he/she become your lover, thing he/she has to improve on will be: her habit of talking very little. haha
8. If he/she become your enemy, you will: lose a good good friend
9. If he/she become your enemy, the reason will be: She err. Totally forgot about me, and refuse to reply my smses. haha
10. The most desired thing you want to do for him/her now is: make her talk more.
11. Your overall impression of him/her is: Sweeeet
12. How you think people around you will feel about you?: NOISY.
13. The characters you love of yourself are: Err. Outspoken? It comes in handy during presentations. I can really talk alot,i pity my friends/classmates.
14. On the contrary, the characters you hate yourself are: Assiduous mind, think too much.
15. The most ideal person you want to be is: A happy person from within, get good grades and achieve my dreams.
16. For people that care and like you, say something to them: Although I may not be there always, I treasure each and every of our friendships.
17. Pass this quiz to 10 persons that you wished to know how they feel about you
1. Amelia
2.Fadhilah
3. Nurul
4. Fat
5. Yingmin
6. Keyan
7. WeiJian (i don’t think you’ll do this. Hahaha)
8. Sabrina (i doubt you'll do this also)
9. Hira
10. Raihan
18. Who is no.6 having relationship with? Her suspicious EyeCandy =P
19. Is no.9 a male or female? Female
20. If no.7 and 10 are together, will it be a good thing? HAHA. NO. Not possible.
22. What is no.2 studying about? Arts in Innova
23. When was the last time you had a chat with no.3? Yesterday in school.
24. What kind of music band does no.8 like? Eh. I don’t know, but I know she LOVES animals.
25. Does no.1 have any siblings? Yup. Her sister.
26. Will you woo no.3? HAHAHAHAHAHA. She’s my partime bf.
27. How about no.5? Hahaha. Sure, if we both decided to be LESBIANS.
28. Is no.4 single? Yea
29. What is the surname of no.5? Wang
30. What 's the hobby of no.4? Sleeping. Fangirling over Jap bands like News, Arashi etc.
31. Does no.5 and 9 get along well? They don’t know each other. haha
32. Where is no.2 studying at? Innova JC
33. Talk something casually about no.1: She loves the aircon too much.
34. Have you tried developing feelings for no.8? Love her as a good friend, yes. (: I’m straight.
35. Where does no.9 live at? Admiralty
36. What colour does no.4 like? Orange
37. Are no.5 and 1 best friends? No
38. Does no.7 like no.2? I guess so, as a senior, and friend.
39. How do you get to know no.2? Since we’ve been classmates since sec1
40. Does no.1 have any pets? Eh. Dog? In Batam?
41. Is no.7 the sexiest person in the world? HAHAHA. He’ll kill me if i say yes. I’m a good godsis =P

Anyway, 3Us for Mids :(
But, i jumped 3 grades for Bio, haha. One of the most improved students. Haha, not bragging.
I need motivation to study, and everyday i blatantly, watch some people in sch. haha.
Nurul knows =P oh i tink weijian knows also. lol. many people know.

2008-06-27T12:57:00.002+08:00

I remembered something.

After the long 3hours Maths paper ytrd,
on the way to the bustop, was chatting with Nurul,
as usual, talking and talking.... and I put forth my right foot,
only to land on the ground.

It was like an unexpected 10seconds.
I was talking and just landed on the ground,
because I didn't realise it was level ground.
10seconds of fame, spontaneous falling to the ground, landing in a sitting position,
reflex screaming. Lol. There were a whole lot of Peejay students.
There was this guy who was walking right in front of us, and
when I actually screamed, he turned and had this hilarious shocked.
Its not supposed to be funny, falling in front of many many eyes,
but the entire situation was very funny.
Nurul had fun laughing ttm.

I think Maths took the strength from me, until I cant walk properly. lol.

2008-06-27T02:03:00.002+08:00

I don't have pics to post -.-
This blog houses entries of banal days and stale polaroids.
2more days of exams, which means 2 more chance to gain marks to re-establish equilibrium to the subjects with diminishing hope.
This sounds like Le Chateliers Principle(Chem) -.-
Oh Midyears.

I need to go out/shop/snap decent pics.

Change is a funny thing. We never are quite sure what we are becoming…or even why. Then one day we look at ourselves and wonder who we are, and how we got that way. Only one thing about change remains constant…it is always painful.
- Jodi Picoult -

Say It Again - Marié Digby

2008-06-24T15:27:00.004+08:00

Spontaneous Idealists are creative, lively and open-minded persons. They are humorous and dispose of a contagious zest for life. Their enthusiasm and sparkling energy inspires others and sweeps them along. They enjoy being together with other people and often have an uncanny intuition for their motivations and potential. Spontaneous Idealists are masters of communication and very amusing and gifted entertainers. Fun and variety are guaranteed when they are around. However, they are sometimes somewhat too impulsive in dealing with others and can hurt people without really meaning to do so, due to their direct and sometimes critical nature.

This personality type is a keen and alert observer; they miss nothing which is going on around them. In extreme cases, they tend to be oversensitive and exaggeratedly alert and are inwardly always ready to jump. Life for them is an exciting drama full of emotionality. However, they quickly become bored when things repeat themselves and too much detailed work and care is required. Their creativity, their imaginativeness and their originality become most noticeable when developing new projects and ideas - they then leave the meticulous implementation of the whole to others. On the whole, Spontaneous Idealists attach great value to their inner and outward independence and do not like accepting a subordinate role. They therefore have problems with hierarchies and authorities.

If you have a Spontaneous Idealist as your friend, you will never be bored; with them, you can enjoy life to the full and celebrate the best parties. At the same time, they are warm, sensitive, attentive and always willing to help. If Spontaneous Idealists have just fallen in love, the sky is full of violins and their new partners are showered with attention and affection. This type then bubbles over with charm, tenderness and imagination. But, unfortunately, it soon becomes boring for them once the novelty has worn off. Boring everyday life in a partnership is not for them so that many Spontaneous Idealists slip from one affair into another. However, should the partner manage to keep their curiosity alive and not let routine and familiarity gain the upper hand, Spontaneous Idealists can be inspiring and loving partners.

Adjectives which describe your type

spontaneous, enthusiastic, idealistic, extroverted, theoretical, emotional, relaxed, friendly, optimistic, charming, helpful, independent, individualistic, creative, dynamic, lively, humorous, full of zest for life, imaginative, changeable, adaptable, loyal, sensitive, inspiring, sociable, communicative, erratic, curious, open, vulnerable

These subjects could interest you

literature, art, music, parties, concerts, travel, dancing, eating out, joint pleasure

Take this here

Maybe I'm not that creative, but I can be "inspiring&loving partner?"
HAHAHA

2008-06-21T23:59:00.003+08:00

"Do what you feel in your heart to be right- for you'll be criticized anyway. You'll be damned if you do, and damned if you don't." -Eleanor Roosevelt

The above quote applies for the brave, and the ones who have the ability to go against conformity.
I'm too much of a go-with-the-flow person, to act in such a way. &chasing after a reverie can be such an onerous task, but, obstacles are placed in our way to see if what we really want is worth fighting for. Fighting a battle alone is never easy, but, its worth trying.

Okayy. I shall not continue, the clock's ticking.
Midyears commence on tuesday, since I have no paper on Monday.
The net can be such a distraction, maybe I should cut off the connection or err
close blog/lj, delete friendster,facebook etc. Thats a whole lot of different accounts,
but, I guess this blog carried sentimental value, since it existed for 2yrs, and
it contains the most unglam,retarded,immature entries ever. Wait, I guess,
I'm still immature at times. Not looking forward to turning 18.

Enough said, I've to study. -.-

2008-06-20T22:54:00.004+08:00

Happy Birthday Yingmin!
All the best for MidYears
Stay Healthy & Happy (:

Nurul and me were arguing whether today is your birthday, or tmr. Lol.
Anyway, I'll still wish you, so the date doesn't really matter eh? =P

I'm quite scared for Mye. hoho. Time should stop.
I haven't been utilising the free 1000 sms I have. Boring.
Random song:
The Time of My Life - David Cook

2008-06-19T13:39:00.001+08:00

Fever feverish. hoho.

2008-06-18T19:49:00.002+08:00

Saw a metro version of Weijian in the train. Haha.

I'm one irritating sister.
Amelia got me a shirt with a 'Monkey Face' haha, thanks alot.
Attneded Maths Mock, without Compass, couldn't draw the Argand Diagram.
Sleeping pattern is screwed, my head hurts.

Headache headache, Please go away :(

2008-06-17T17:26:00.002+08:00

Terminal 3, to company Mama to see doctor.
Of all places, Raffles Medical at the airport.

The meal at Popeye's was very very fulling.

Random

A glimpse of how my notes fly all over the place,
but, still, not prepared for mye :(

Grocery shopping last week with Nurul.
Had to cab home, otherwise I won't be able to get home with all those bags.

Sleepy face.

Anyway, a controversial news on homosexuality. Whats your take on this? link

Maths Mock tmr -.-

2008-06-16T22:59:00.003+08:00

Its tough meeting the requirements at times.
How amazingly, everything falls into a coincidence.
It is the feeling of wanting something so greatly, that we go to such lengths.
I wonder, if it is ever appreciated/understood.

I'm scared for MidYears :(

2008-06-14T23:34:00.003+08:00

Your gift for gab is Laying On The Laughter!

Laughter really is the best medicine. For a friendly and funny soul like you, nothing opens up communication lines and lowers people's defenses like a hearty chuckle, sidesplitting guffaw, or shared snicker. Whether you're trying to defuse tense situations or liven up dull ones, humor always seems to lighten the mood and get people talking.

Whether your wit is revealed through goofy jokes, dark humor, edgy sarcasm, or sophisticated satire, your true gifts are showcased when you're making wisecracks. So bring on the slapstick, the irony, and the jests — eventually we'll all be laughing with you.

2008-06-14T19:31:00.002+08:00

The irritating brother wants to play his games -.-

Yay. I wanna watch Basketball Fire =D
Wuzun wuzun wuzun. heheh.

I am scared..... MYE
Gosh :(

2008-06-13T01:50:00.003+08:00

Damn Sad :(
Bleahs.

I hope gastric isn't coming back, cos my stomach have been hurting badly.
Don't ask me why I am still here. sheesh.

Conclusion, still sad.

2008-06-11T00:27:00.002+08:00

Perhaps, a little enlightenment helps, not spiritually.
I don't know how to treat/heal this, because its very existence isn't acknowledged.
A casual chat with Aqilah, got my mind working, subconsciously taking notes, to remind self of such.
Maybe there's more to this, than just letting days pass.

On a lighter note, town-ed today.
The Cotton On fever is getting worse, the different outlets are like packed, jammed and crowded.
The company's making big bucks, selling cotton really. The discount posters everywhere, very much tempting, but I didn't shop much. Marriott Hotel is quite a nice place. No photos today, because we were rushing. I saw Zuhui in the opposite train, lol, coincidence.

This is partially copied from lj, because I ran out of creative juices to rephrase or
rather lay down fresh thoughts into words.
Sometimes the mind opts to remain youthful, at times wilful,
while the body matures. Contradiction in every aspect of living.

Assiduous mind, can be unhealthy.

2008-06-10T00:38:00.002+08:00

Yay. Amelia's back.
Idk why but I do have alot to say to her. hoho.
Amelia's one good listener, y'know (:

I'm going out tmr, actually today since its past midnight. yipee.
I know, guilt is gonna engulf within.
Aspirations-turned-obligations, I should learn to view things from a different perspective.
What a wonderful world, I'm surrounded by pretty much optimistic people,
yet I'm thee total opposite.

I'm skillful at it, the ability to hide the unseen matters in this world. (:

2008-06-08T17:34:00.002+08:00

Sudden overwhelming thoughts.
I need to scream.
Raaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah
MYEMYEMYE.
:(

2008-06-06T22:25:00.003+08:00

I need to stop being lazy. wtf.
MYE. Study laaaaaa.
Don't laze around at home and sleep sleep sleep, and watch tv.
holy fish. what is slacking happily when exams are coming. sheeesh.
I need a cup of hot tea now.

I seriously need to lose weight. A definite urgency to shed some lipids.

Because it stays

2008-06-04T20:22:00.002+08:00

To laugh often and much, to win the respect of intelligent people and the affection of children, to earn the appreciation of honest critics and endure the betrayal of false friends, to appreciate beauty, to find the best in others, to leave the world a bit better, whether by a healthy child, a garden patch… to know even one life has breathed easier because you have lived. This is to have succeeded!
[Ralph Waldo Emerson]

I think I have a fetish for thinking too much.
To add on to that, the inability to express it out, is one barrier.
Excessive brainwork done, self-effacing attempts, leads to nothing.
The inability. sos.

Take A Bow - Rihanna

2008-06-03T18:32:00.002+08:00

Another quiz ripped from YingMin.

1. How long will you wait for someone you love?
~~Till the end of time~~ Until I decide to move on.

2. What do you want to do now?
Watch Tv. Yeah. fcuking slacker right.

3. What will you be doing at 6pm?
Its past 6pm

.4. Do you hate your friends sometimes?
Haha, Yeah, but no matter how irritating they get, they are still my friends (:

5. Where do you wish to die?
Anywhere but hospitals, surrounded by loved ones.

6. Do you believe in seeing a rainbow after the rain?
Definitely.

7. What impossible things you wish to do?
I want every orphan to be adopted, have a home and live happily.

8. Your darkest secret?
Would I reveal it here? Haha.

9.are you happy with ur life now?
Ummm... maybe

10. What if your crush asked you out?
Firstly, I'll be speechless, and faint.
Secondly, that will never happen. lol.

12. What feelings do you hate the most?
Regrets are the worst feeling ever.

13. Do you cherish every friendship of yours?
Yes, each and every friendship is treasured greatly, even if I may not be there physically most of the time. I remember my friends (:

14. What are you looking forward to in the coming weeks?
Errrr... Nothing much.

15. The most important thing in your life.
family.health.

16. Who do you hope to always be there for you?
I don't know.

17. Do you find life meaningless?
Haha. Its meaningful in every aspect, both good and bad.

18. Who do you love the most?
family.friends.

19. What's the most gross thing u've done?
Eh. Is undergoing operation counted?

20. What's your greatest wish?
a) to achieve my goals
b) For the world to be a better place, stop war, and conspiracies, let the poor live well.
c) Save the earth - Make the sure the campaigns WORK (:

21. what do you love best about yourself?
Well... I need to figure that out.

As if to affirm the misgivings, the answer came.
I'm broke... money money faster come.

Quotes to share:

1.
is anybody satisfied with who they really are?
you could be the moon and still be jealous of the stars.

2.
stand up, write the soundtrack of your life

3.
never be bullied into silence.
never allow yourself a victim.
accept no one's definition of your life;
define yourself.

4.
i have an incredible sense of self control when i'm sober,
only when i'm drunk will you see my name
on your caller id.

5.
she just keeps pushing herself,
thinking she can someday get out of here.

6.
scars fade. wounds heal
so you cant always see
the pain someone feels

7.
she kept herself away because she couldn't stand the thought,
of another heart breaking good bye.

8.
don't worry about the future.
Or worry, but know that worrying is as effective as trying to
solve an algebra equation by chewing bubble gum.
The real troubles in your life are apt to be things
that never crossed your worried mind,
the kind that blindside you at 4 p.m. on some idle Tuesday.

2008-06-01T15:17:00.007+08:00

Withdrawal symptoms, due to lack of endorphins.
Lets pretend I haven't repeated myself, and say it again:
I'm BORED. Mundane days - kills.

Wanted to online shop, but the item I'm interested in, is Sold Out.
Awesome. Actually, I'm alittle broke.

Summation:
Banal days at home + econs tutorial to do + procrastination + lazy to do hw + hungry + bored
= One bored ttm person, who's pretty much, genuinely empty within.

I know I need to do my work, but
I wanna Go Out.

Nurul said thinking that a human is ____ is an accomplishment for me. LOL,
Maybe I just regain my human instincts.
The enclosed open person. What a contradiction. lol.
Blablablabla has a nice name.

This blog is for happy days, Lj is filled with depressed/whining/ranting.
Reading my own entries, weeks back,
I think, I don't sound like me. Haha.
Bipolar maybe? Whatever.
Bored.

Pretty? Obviously no by yours truly who doesn't possess the slightest bit of artistic talent.
Credits to the designer

2008-06-01T00:34:00.004+08:00

I typed this the second time. wow.

. What time did you get up this morning?
10:30AM

2. Diamonds or pearls?
Diamonds

3. What was the last film you saw at the cinema?
I forgot the title. It was a horror movie.

4. What is your favorite TV show?
No particular favourite.

5. What do you usually have for breakfast?
Bread with butter and kaya.

6. What is your middle name?
Adilla

7. What food do you dislike?
Vegetables. I'm a meatarian, a not-so-thin one at that.

8. What is your favorite CD at the moment?
I haven't listened to CDs for awhile now.

9. What kind of car do you drive?
I don't drive any vehicle now, unless a bicycle is counted, but perhaps, a Porsche is nice (:

10. Favorite sandwich?
Egg Mayo. Simple.

11. What characteristic do you despise?
Hypocrite.fakes.

12. Favorite item of clothing?
Any casual shirt, good enough for a laid back day.

13. If you could go anywhere in the world on vacation, where would you go?
The whole world, visit the 7Wonders of the world.

14. What color is your bathroom?
white

15. Favorite brand of clothing?
I hate answering absolute questions, because I'm pretty much fickle minded, and random.

16. Where would you retire to?
Home, watching the golden sun rays peek through the curtains every morning.

17. What was your most recent memorable birthday?
Can't remember.

18. Favorite sport to watch?
Football, basketball. Watching is always fun, its a habit, in me.

19. Furthest place you are sending this?
Earth

20. Who do you least expect to send this back to you?
I don't know

21. Person you expect to send it back first?
Nobody send it to me in the first place.

22. Favorite word?
Urmm. ________

23. When is your birthday?
22October90

24. Are you a morning person or a night person?
Night, nocturnal being.

25. What is your shoe size?
Depending on the shoe cutting, 5-7.

26. Pets?
A bird, and a fish = fishybirdy

27. Any new and exciting news you’d like to share with us?
I think blank is blank. ((:

28. What did you want to become when you were little?
Psychologist.

29. How are you today?
Bored, pathetic, empty, bored. You get it don't you.

30. What is your favorite candy?
I'm a candy-lover, who gets hyper and sugar-rush often, due to high consumption of sweets/candies

31. What is your favorite flower?
Don't buy flowers, Don't grow flowers, Don't get flowers, therefore, no favourite,
but white roses seems nice,

32. What is a day on the calendar you are looking forward to?
21Nov, because 20th Nov is my last Alevel paper.

33. What is your full name?
Adilla Binte Adam, short isn't it?

34. What was the last thing you ate?
Ikan Bilis. Hahaha.

35. Do you wish on stars?
Yeah, but pragmatic enough to realise they may/will not come true.

36. If you were a crayon, what color would you be?
White.

37. How is the weather right now?
Cold.

38. Last person you spoke to on the phone?
Fadhilah.

39. Do you like the person who sent this to you?
I ripped from Raihan who ripped it form someone else. haha, what a chain.

40. Favorite soft drink?
Coke. Sprite. RootBeer.

41. Favorite restaurant?
Not a regular diner of any.

42. Hair color?
Dark brown.

43. Sibling?
One irritating brother.

44. Favorite day of the year?
Everyday can be special, filled with joy and laughter (:

45. What was your favorite toy as a child?
Barbie dolls maybe, I had an entire room for toys, which was sadly dumped when I was in lower primary.

46. Summer or winter?
Singapore only has Summer technically.

47. Hugs or kisses?
Hugs.

48. Chocolate or Vanilla?
Chocolate.

49. Do you want your friends to email you back?
They can sms/call/meet/talk to me besides sending an email (:

50. When was the last time you cried?
Yesterday maybe, while watching tv. Haha, pathetic right.

51. What is under your bed?
Nothing, basically air particles.

52. Who is the friend you have had the longest?
You mean friends I knew the longest? Maybe, from Primary school, Aqilah.

53. What did you do last night?
Watched tv, slept early because I was too exhausted.

54. Favorite smell?
Cookies fresh from the oven, strawberry flavoured soap.

55. What are you afraid of?
The unknown.lizards.pests..

56. Plain, buttered, or salted Popcorn?
Buttered/salted, or mixed. heh.

57. How many keys on your key ring?
More than 5 but there's only one door to enter from. haha.

58. How many years at your current job?
12 years being a student.

59. Favorite day of the week?
Friday, because its TGIF. yay.

60. How many towns have you lived in?
Singapore, Jurong.

61. Do you make friends easily?
Yeah, but friendships need time to strengthen.

62.How many people will you be sending this to?
Zero. Or maybe five. Yingmin says she will do this. (:

Yingmin, Fad, Ika, Hira, Amelia.
You can choose not to do if you don't wish to, I'm just bored.

AMELIA,
Have a SAFE trip to China!
Enjoy yourself, even if you have the 'best roommate ever. Haha =P

2008-05-31T20:32:00.001+08:00

Ultimate boredom.
Seriously. Anyone wanna go out?
Or anyone wants to listen to my non-funny-nor-interesting-or-entertaining nonsense?

Simplicity that makes my day.

2008-05-30T15:21:00.004+08:00

Hungry.Hungry.Hungry

Hello world, H1 Bio paper is over and done with. YAAAY (:
Mcqs, as usual ~~reproduced~~ replicated with the aid of DNA Polymerase, so it wasn't too bad.
Paper2 was Boring, I didnt have the mood to do.
It was average, considering the mercy granted on us; we were told the chapters coming out for Essay.
Thanks to thee kind teacher. Hopefully it'll be better than Common Tests which was horriblyterribly done.

Right now, I Need to SLEEP.
I need food. Haha, Eat and sleep, and expand horizontally.
I am hungry ttm, haven't eaten a proper meal since morning,
and I'm a little sleepy, thanks to the late night cramming of Genetically Modified Organisms into my puny brains.

A minute factor does changes an entire day.
Yesterday was gloomy, due to exam pressure.
Today is sunny and bright, because exam is over,
not forgetting the remaining H2 exams when sch reopens.

Because I'm happy like this (:

2008-05-26T23:25:00.003+08:00

Told ya, its the word of the month: Jingoism

Sports Day, with all the screaming, running, sprinting, tug-of-war against the teachers.

Soon, I'll leave all this, the uniform, the lectures, the canteen, the entire life of being a student.
12 years of uniformed life.

Ill Never Stop - N Sync

H1 exam on FRIDAY.
Life's of lipids, ribosomes, intons, and plasmids.
Raaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah. Teeeeeeeeee. haha.

I've been on a hiatus for sometime,
haven meet people like Fizah,Husii,Hira,Yan,Wana,Tiq,Aishah and the list goes on, for like ages.
Oh schoooooooool. cloned cow.
Bottomline, I haven met up with friends for awhile.
Lack of Coherence, oh well.

Quote:
"And above all, watch with glittering eyes the whole world around you because the greatest secrets are always hidden in the most unlikely places.
Those who don't believe in magic will never find it." (:

2008-05-22T19:00:00.004+08:00

(The train really came, when we reached the track. So classic. The track behind schoool.)
Word of the month : JINGOISM
hehehe. I'm one happy bunny (:

#402 - Very Tired

2008-05-21T22:43:00.002+08:00

Alright, I shall update, after neglecting this blog for awhile now.

Currently:
Tired. Exhausted, after screaming during Sports Day just now.
Yep, call it the "enthusiasm/school spirit" whatever, I didn't wanna watch
the LAST Sports Day of my life, feeling oh-so-bored and restless.
School events get me high - (i can see hundreds of pairs of eyes rolling alrd)
Cheering/screaming till the throat dries up, makes me happy. Weird? Idk.

Some events were nice to watch -insert giggly high laughter- (:
Blablabla is not curvy, I stand firm on my ground. haha.
The relatively short distance events were intense, its quite scary
watching competitors sprinting as if the race was a life-death deciding factor.
Oh well, that pretty sums up the Last Sports Day of my life. sad? idk.

GP exam is this Friday, 48hours to go.
I'm not looking forward to it. The great reluctance within is accumulating.
Not wanting to pay attention, not wanting to care a bit for the subject.
Yes, I know, it is not right, especially since ALEVELS are drawing near.
Oh well, be positive.

It has reached a point where the damages are beyond repair.
Yeah, life's crap. Growing up is hard, when things never seem to fall in place.
It was a thin glimmer of hope, now reduced to absolute darkness.
Don't pry. There's no massive literal destruction or apparent problem.
Everyone needs their space, and the right to express such emotions.
Of course, without a doubt, I'm better off, or atleast we are better off,
such that Singapore is not hit with a cyclone/earthquake, but we do have our troubles don't we.
Maybe its just hormones.

Complexities:
Thoughts are compressed, due to the inability to express.
No longer have any recollections on how to do so.
Consciousness may after all be detrimental to self.
Everything said, were actually nothing, relative to the bulk of
brainwork done, restricted by the wall of conformity.

Deserved a standing ovation for such mindless whining
over trivial issues, instead of cramming for exams,
or even completing overdue tutorials. oh what a wonderful world.

I miss friends.too many of them. I will miss the pj friends too, when 2009 arrives. Sooner or later, we'll be half a century OLD.
Despite technological advancements, we are still unable, to buy time.
Can affirmation be bought instead? Running low on that.

#401 no one is free. even the birds are chained to the sky.

2008-05-15T22:05:00.004+08:00

Quotes:

1.
She talks too loud. She says things that she should keep to herself. She's slow and silly. She can be very thickheaded and rude. She wants too much. She stays hidden behind a fake smile. She cries at night to the sad songs on the radio. She runs away from the truth. She doesn't want to do anything but feel the warmth.

2.
Everyone just needs a day to get away. Away from pain, away from confusion, away from everything that's ever happened and ended up changing their lives forever.

3.

Growing up is never straight forward.
There are moments when everything is fine, & other moments, when you're
a teenager & you realize that there are certain memories that you'll never get
back..
& certain people that are going to change & the hardest part is realizing
that there's nothing you can do except watch them,
& realize that everything is going to change.

4.
Beer: Now cheaper than gas.
Drink...don't drive.

5.
I can't remember why I didn't say it,
I don't think it would've made a difference,
but still, I really wish I would've just put it out there

6.
To create a puzzle you must first take it apart, make a mess of the pieces,
& try a few wrong fits. For only then can you be certain that the final product is exactly what it should be.

7.
I like to pretend that everything's alright,
because when everybody else thinks you're fine,
sometimes you forget for a while,
that you're not.

8.
The truly painful goodbyes
are the ones that are never said, and never explained.

9.
If you're happy inside you don't have to convince everyone else.

10.
"There is a fountain of youth; it is your mind, your talents, the creativity you bring to life and the lives of people you love. When you learn to tap this source, you will truly have defeated age."
-Sophia Loren

I don't have much to say, so, as usual, I'll share quotes I found.
None is by me, credits to Quotexwhore
Tmr's TGIF.
Its a lil weird going home earlier, and no more long Drama SYF rehearsals.
I hate goodbyes and changes, but then again, that's life.
&I'm just another human being on earth.
(feeling a little lazy, oh no)

Sexuality education on Wednesday, lol.
Since like forever, we've been having Sex Ed,
tried to study for SPA, and listened.
It wasnt so bad, I discovered my language of love,
lol, words of affirmation. & one of the rules of dating is
to be a good listener and not talk your date to death.
HAHAHAAHAHAHAHA.

2008-05-14T19:03:00.001+08:00

I need Anti-CARELESS PILLS.
SERIOUSLY, SHOULD HAVE BEEN AWARDED THE MOST CARELESS AWARD OF THE YEAR.

Amazed that I'm still standing here alive.

2008-05-10T19:37:00.002+08:00

Time is passing exceptionally fast.

The whole class is addicted to hp games -.-

I am strong...... and very lame, but with 2legs.

*felicia, don't kill me. =P*

Think about it, when 2008 comes to an end, perhaps I'll miss school, though I've always claim to hate it. I'll miss the crazy drama peeps too. Because life is such.

2008-04-27T20:52:00.002+08:00

I wonder how some people can stay positive all the time.
Its tiring.
In need of belief.hope.courage.strength.support.

Can't be expressed with words.
Really, like, a sturdy decrepit.

Asking the unknown for an unidentified strength.
Packed with billions, yet felt so alone.The world seems so nice, sometimes, but its usually rare.

2008-04-26T23:54:00.003+08:00

A gut feeling is whispering, and telling, that, i.am.forgotten.
Saddening. I remembers, only not to me remembered.Wishing to not be insignificant.
Transient existence. too great a hurdle to overcome.

Friends, are, still, precious. Priceless.
Its not apparent, but I do value friendships.
Not being there, doesn't mean, I don't care.

2008-04-21T18:58:00.001+08:00

Please. make. things. better.
Not usually optimisstic, but giving it a try.
GP lessons are boring-er/mundane/annoying/boring/irrita

ting.
There'll be CCA everyday except Monday, woohoo.
Tiring it will be, but I must endure.
I must learn to shut up more often.

2008-04-20T20:10:00.003+08:00

Yam (:

It was HOT. Firedrill was awesome.

s09 peeps.
Say hello the the beloved friends.

Random, but beautiful, isn't it?

This reminds me of Raihan. haha

Doodles during the UN mock conference and debate -.-

Havent posted this face for sometime. =p

2008-04-20T00:51:00.000+08:00

Bio Test is on Monday. Hohoho.
I'll blog later.

2008-04-16T22:18:00.002+08:00

TIREDDD.
I am Madam Teo's "adopted daughter" OMG.
Of all things, HER adopted daughter. bleahs. Nvm, maybe I'll get an A for GP, since I have an adopted mom as a GP teacher. AIYA. IT STILL SOUNDS WEIRD/disgusting. okshutup.iknow.imabitch.

Strategic geographical location, yes, I loved Geography,
although I'm no longer taking the subject in school.
I LOVE sitting next to Sitt (: Thankfully, not near anyone I don't wish to sit next to.
Yeah I know, I need some anger management, and stop having excessive baggages of anger in me.
Should compose a song entitled, Fuckit. Hahaha. Not a decent student eh.
Aseembly, was. Hahaha. Strategic geographical location. Need to match 2 more names. GILE.

FIRE DRILL wasted our GP lesson. yay.
It was a free tanning session, although I DO NOT wish to be any darker.
Manage to snap pics in the scorching sun, but, I'm a little lazy to upload. Soon sooon.

I prefer my godbrother to errr, an adopted mom. Hoho.
Definitely man, bro rawks, more than thee GP teacher.

2008-04-15T23:55:00.001+08:00

I need to rant to someone.
oh.can.someone.listen.
I.know.I'm.just.a.whiny.bitch.
Iwantotalkto_______.

ANNOYED.

2008-04-13T17:56:00.005+08:00

On a lighter note, I'm really exhausted from The Amazing Race yesterday.
PJ organized a really amazing Race, amidst the rain, which again soaked my shoes.
Time Check:
Friday: 0635hrs - 2230hrs
Saturday: 0605 - 2250hrs
I spent that much time out of home on both days.
Another attempt to increase the number of CIP hours, so that the testimonial will
not appear that substandard as compared to some hardworking students. Pathetic.
Hw is not done, and I don't feel like doing too (:
I love my big baggy drama tee, makes me feel thin. Haha, false hope.

Tuesday morning.
The bus which was stranded because an accident blocked the usual bus route.
Thus, I was LATE to school. Pretty much tempted to skip school.

Monday.

Fatimah.

Fadhilah.

This is a miniature Central part of Singapore.

Extra preson in the background.

Yet, another one.

I dunno where the rest of my pictures are, damnit.
Ihope I didn't delete them accidentally.
Oh well, I have to prepare for another week of school,
minus Tuesday because it is E-Learning day! YAY! No school =D
I need to exercise more.

Talking to _____ is refreshing. Motivational too.

2008-04-13T17:55:00.001+08:00

I wish I am more than just me. Someone who doesn't think as much, someone genuinely happy,
comfortable with life. Yet, it is distressingly the opposite. At any point of the day, random thoughts will come to mind, subconsciously to increase consciousness. My fondness for scrutiny doesn't help. Others have the guts to do as they wish, have things their way. I don't belong to that category, and because we live in such a world, where freedom is non-existent, its only advisable to think before acting. Haha, what an irony, I seem to be someone who acts on impulse, but, I do think SOMETIMES. Expression of thoughts has to be carefully considered, wants has to be replaced with obligations, unless you have the strength to oppose conformity. Parallel comparisons are made too often, that it becomes part of you, every single minuscule detail has to be compared. The invisible courage is needed to beat the diffident soul. Where can that courage be found? Perhaps, no one knows. Perhaps its nowhere to be found. Obligatory words to be written, doesn't requires logic.

I love people who make me laugh. I honestly think it's the thing I like most, to laugh. It cures a multitude of ills. It's probably the most important thing in a person.-Audrey Hepburn

2008-04-12T01:45:00.001+08:00

Iwanttowish.butbecause.imfking.ifnssfescfusrfes.letsforgetit.
I want someone who can _____&_____&___________

2008-04-12T01:36:00.002+08:00

Thoughts are overflowing in my brain.
I did not attend the FUN picnic. omg.omg.omg.

I wished Aziqa late. I'm so sorry.

HAPPY BELATED 17TH!

I got your age wrong! Heh.
Stay Sweet & Hvae fun in skoooooooool

Another week has passed. Yes, 1week closer to SYF, MidYr Exams, Birthday(insignificant), Alevels, and basically everything. Perhaps I've said this a gazillion times, I shall say it again, I really think time is passing so quickly, a little too quick. 9days of thoughts not penned down, that quite abit.

Monday was fine, I was actually upbeat because I did my tutorial. I was very late the next day,
0820hrs, entered the school. Smrt buses need to increase their efficiency. The 172 bus service was stranded because of one accident. I waited for a half an hour for the bus, and 2 bus zoomed pass with the sign "OFFSERVICE" What is the bloody link between 8stranded 172 buses and and accident, and buses going off service? They should be ensuring that all of the other buses are arriving on time, because the usual passengers are gonna be LATE. oh well, broke my record, late for the first time. I was hoping to not be late ever, since I'm always late when I meet up with people outside *coughcough*

Flu has been spreading across class, those who were sick, recovered, and other got sick. We did GRAMMAR worksheet on Wednesday because our dearest GP teacher was absent. Who does GRAMMAR ws at the age of 18? Either our grammar is tragically pathetic, or our teacher couldn't find any other appropriate ws for us. I saw Haikal on Wednesday! Haha, I miss meeting people. I don't think there was any significant incidents on Thursday.

Oh well, Project Work results was released today. Half the cohort got C i THINK. Nobody from the class got A, it is very sad, I tell you. Even _______ got a C, when ________ didn't even put in much effort. I totally agree with Nurul, that it is an insult to those who put in much more effort, but, life has never been fair anyway. Tried. Did what I could. It wasn't enough. Will we ever know what is enough? Disappointed+infuriated = no tears+anger+laughter+madness

Fill in the blanks with specific names, can be repeated more than once.

I think ______/________ is cute. I can't differentiate _______ and ________ . Both are cute.
_______ has pretty strong language foundation, scored well in language-related subjects,therefore, I want _______ to be my tutor. Haha. _______ is also not that bad.
I saw ______ in the bus just now, ______ board the same bus, was sitting afew seats behind. Made
Theories stay. _____, _______, _________ = cute. Oh ya, its _______ birthday. Idiot. Want to wish but don;t wana wish. What is this. I hope I'm wrong about ______. I prefer ______. I want _______.

This is not making any sense. Ignore this crap.

I'm happier on days, which I had lesser sleep. I wake up, and feel extremely pressurised whenever I sleep early/really early the night before. Can I get a prescription that will allow me to stay awake for 5days?
Schoolwork is pilling, literally, by the time Alevels come, I can stack up my notes and account to the death of many trees. CCA is a little more tiring, but I shall not complain, because I know all our dearest actors are training/rehearsing much harder.

The hatred I have for school will resurface whenever it rains. It makes me hate the freaking long walk to school form the bustop, it irritates me when I think of how secluded is the school, its annoying when I remember how accessible and near JJ is to home, but, I'm still thankful I'm in PJ. Theory stays, I am full of contradictions. I see many heads nodding.

I have to be in school by 7am later. That is fcuking early for a Saturday morning.
Damn the education system.

I swear I cursed countless times today(Friday).
I should have put up the sign "Caution, Do not come near if you have not had your vaccination for immunity against vulgarities" I'm sorry if I pollute anyone hearing today, due to the overdose of swearing.

My godbrother is surprisingly extremely jubilant today, and I'm kind of feeling the opposite.
A cranky person + A hyper person = BANG!!!!! (explosion)
He told me to visit this website that will help me be err a more decisive person, i guess.
Its just nice to crap with someone when you're cranky, and not forgetting, listen to Muttons to Midnight on 987fm.

Someday, I should see a psychologist.
What a joke, I wanted to take pysch in Uni.
Fad can run 2.4 in 12.38minutes. Now, I feel super unhealthy.
Doomed to the land of fatness for eternity? I need to get the passport to migrate away from the Land of Fatness.

This is very long, Thank You, if you've actually spared time to read about my ever mundane life. (:

WHEN THERES SOMETHING YOU WANT;;
fight for it. dont give up no-matter how hopeless it seems,
even when you've lost hope, cause years from now you're
gonna look back and wish you gave it one more shot
cause the best things in life dont come easy..

I hate how people are always telling me,"everything will be fine, just be yourself"
because then I find myself asking, "but
what if I don't like who I am right now?"

*Quotes proven to be true, very much of facts than fiction.

2008-04-05T22:04:00.002+08:00

Its funny how fate brings people together.
I remembered going for many camps during secondary school,
I remembered this small boy, haha, at that time, who is rather softspoken,
and doesn't talk. I was one fierce grp leader,
but somehow, I found a godbrother amongst the entire big group of people. (:
I am thankful to have met such a brother, and will always be.

Before the day ends, I wanna give a shoutout to DILYS:
Happy 18th Birthday ex-classmate cum current-schoolmate (:
Although, we don't usually contact each other, I'll remember you as the quiet
classmate, and the one whom I will meet in the bus if I'm late. haha.
Stay Happy and healthy. May you lived with joy and happiness always.

2008-04-05T21:06:00.003+08:00

We’re here on earth to find that special someone.

But I’m not looking,

and I don’t have a deadline

(bro, think about this quote)

I've been doing fine without you

Forgetting all the love we once knew

Boy, I ain't the one who slammed that door

Now you say you've changed your thinking

But I ain't got a heart for breaking

So go and pick your bags up off my floor

Love don't live here anymore...

a strong woman takes risks,

takes compliments,

& tries not to take herself too seriously.

It’s you. Every reason he smiles that smile,

every moment of his happiness is wrapped up in you.

It’s you, and it always has been.

How can I compete with that?

Because you're young, you're torn

between a world of hate & a world of dreams;

so much to lose, so much to gain,
so much to fight for, so much to change

Attach but never combine.
Trip but never fall.
To be broken is better than shattered.
Tell him of your strength but never of your past.
Be trustworthy but never trust.
Be cracked but never opened.

When things are bad, we take comfort in the thought,

that they could always be worse.

And when they are, we find hope in the thought

that things are so bad they have to get better.

Too often we underestimate the power of a touch, a smile,
a kind word, a listening ear, an honest compliment,
or the smallest act of caring.
All of which have to potential
to turn a life around.

You’ve got nerve to walk right in

and think what’s mine is yours again

Credits to : quotexwhore
This is obviously not by me.
I just loved all of this, I had to put it up here.

Killmeforblogging

2008-04-03T19:41:00.002+08:00

I am lazy and tired, therefore I shall cross post this entry which I typed in my LJ ytrd.

1. I am super exhausted today
2. I really miss being a leader, or maybe I'm used to being a leader. This is weird but it seems to be in me.
3. We are poor people, who chases after the uncertain, we keep running, without a clear destination in mind.
4. If I were to follow the template/guide to being a good hardworking student, who knows my priority in life, I will not be blogging here, and will not even have an account in LJ.
5. Things gets too overwhelming, you forgot your starting point.
6. I hate typing in numbered sentences.
7. I hope I have enough things to fill my testimonial
8. Exams are absolutely not accurate in measuring the value of a person, it is a piece of paper, that has been given the invisible authority to determine our destiny
9. It is idiotic to number your sentences
9. I feel bad not going this Sunday. Haiz. I miss all of them.
10. I really feel like writing a looong essay on LJ, and rant/whine all I want, BUT I have work to do.

Life's beautiful, because we made it beautiful.
I can be rich, and extremely empty within, whats the whole point?

Urgh. This is not going to make me score As, updating LJ waste our precious time, doesn't it?
As mentioned by the dearest educators, as guided by the affectively efficient education system.

Screw the world. Its insane, way beyond redemption.
Don't turn us into poor souls, empty within, yet enriched on the surface.

Because vulgarities are my good buddy, the best word to describe everything currently is: fcuk

I have yet to update my links. Sorry guys. I'll do it tmr.

Tag Replies:
Aqilah - Haha, u're missed also. Soon soon ok, im busy wif school.
Anati - Holland Village (:
Hira - HELLO!

I ran 3.6km today during PE, woohoo.
So much for being exempted from Napfa and PE.

Before I forget, to the classmate of mine who insists that I talk alot, which is urm maybe true,

Weidi,
HAPPY ADVANCE 18TH BIRTHDAY!
REMEMBER TO TALK MORE, 5000WORDS A DAY OK? (:
HAVE A GREAT GREAT BIRTHDAY,
AND STAY FUNNY,FIT&HEALTHY.
MAY YOU BE BLESSED WITH HAPPINESS ALWAYS,
AND NOT FORGETTING GOOD ACADEMIC GRADES =D

Iloveweekends

2008-03-30T12:19:00.006+08:00

Props can be our source of entertainment. =D

Fried Mars Bars = more fats.
Sinful indulgence.

Happy belated 4th! <3>

He is 4months old. Wooohoooooooo.

Watching Pillowman today, yay.
I slept at almost 6am and woke up at 830am.
I'm so fresh, and wide awake, really.

2008-03-25T21:12:00.002+08:00

" What happened? This is not what you are capable of. I got a shock when I saw your marks, you're capable of getting an A or B" as quoted from Ms Tng, the Econs teacher.
I failed the Case study paper, not just a fail, a very very very bad failure. I was just expressionless, no reaction. numb. Of course I don't expect an A or B, but atleast a PASS, which is equivalent to an E.
What an irony, I understood the extract, (eg. I knew the surplus was decreasing -.-) but my answers were just not straight to the point. Oh wow. I'm such a genius. Ya right.

I tried. I did study, even though it wasn't thorough, and detailed. I managed to cover energetics and kinetics. Pathetic shit. Yet, when the paper is in front of me, poof* goes the brain, panicking as time passes. Trust me, I don't think the impact left on us lasy year has completely dissolved into thin air. Mind over matter. Are just doomed to failure? As much as we have to stay positive and not let any emo crap affect our focus, we are all humans.

Oh well, there is no use whining here because it won't change our marks. In this ever complicated world, our future perhaps depends solely on a PIECE of PAPER. You can be the best in every possible aspect of life, but if your academics fail you, your value plunges just like some shares in the stock market.

"A lesson will be taught to you again and again, until you learn" Mr Hoe was right, but even if we ever learned and try to change. Just how much is enough to make up for the mistake?

Trying to change your destiny, trying to achieve your dreams is no easy task.
Its like hiking Mount Everest, with worn out shoes that doesn't create any friction.
If you're already halfway through and your shoes fail you, either you get a new pair of shoes,
or think of every possible way to salvage the solution.

Totally numb.
Will I be able to take the challenge? Doubts are surfacing.
What defines enough? What defines you? Perhaps, the education system has forgotten that
nobody is borned perfect. Even if a student has straight As, perfect scores,
complemented with excellent testimonials, does that ensures him/her is a valuable person?
Not trying to be philosophical here. I just need a medium to be a whiny brat.

Quotes I found on livejournal, do not rip:

Why am I fighting to live, if I’m just living to fight?
Why am I trying to see when there ain’t nothing in sight?
Why am I trying to give when no one gives me a try?
Why am I dying to live, if I’m just living to die?

Some people live for the rules ... I live for the exceptions

Ever since I was a baby girl I had a dream
Cinderella theme, crazy as it seems
Always knew that deep inside
That there would come that day. But I would have to wait
Make so many mistakes

sometimes its not always easy - its not always right
sometimes its not always fair - its not always perfect.
but its worth the ride the whole damn way.

A dream is a wish your heart makes when you are .fast. asleep

2008-03-24T19:12:00.003+08:00

Saturday was spent at HollandVillage with Hira, walking around, eating ever yummy ice cream, being so random and having Yakun Kaya Toast with 2half boiled eggs in the middle of the day as we watched the rain from inside. I got so engrossed eating the half boiled egg, and making usre I ate no yolk cos I think it sucks. I seriously think Hira looks thinner (:

I felt like a primary school girl.

one word : fat.

Screw the fan for blowing my hair.

This is sinful indulgence, really.

Cheesecake ice cream with errr strawberries and idk what else.

Bubblegum icecream with marshmellows, gummy bears and mini M&Ms.
Our afternoon 'snack'

Crispy kaya toast.

I'm a freak. I tried to avoid the yolk but one of it burst, haha, it spill into the wonderful eggwhite.

A random pic of a bar. I'm just full of entropy. HOHO.

Credits to Jess. I had to steal it, cos its too gorgeous.

I havent met up with these people for 98489659612612930348973890574 days.
They are missed greatly.

I miss this emo kid, haha. She's turning FOUR this Wednesday (:

Term2 is starting, whoo.
Let's be optimisstic and full of drive.
We shall accept the oh-so-wonderful Common tests results, and learn.

Random Crap:
1. My cooking skills needs to be polished.
2. My eyebags are getting worst.
3. I need a picture or more pictures with people like amelia, sabrina, fatimah, aqilah, sarah, celeste, nurul, husii, hira s09, godbro (:
4. I'm tired and broke currently.
5. When I eat my bread, I will bite off all the edges of the so-called skin first.
6. I wanna grow taller.
7. I tend to think alot and ask questions like "What is life? What do we want?"
8. I have a sudden urge to go for a holiday, which I haven been for like afew years.
9. I need to get back into momentum.
10. I think my 18th birthday will be as solemn,boring,uninterestingandPATHETIC.

Oh wow, I forgot about ironing my school uniform.
*throws confetti* So smart.

Its really hard to be a caring friend, a responsible sister, a hardworking student, a good daughter, and a happy individual, simply because nobody's perfect

2008-03-22T23:09:00.010+08:00

Had nothing better to do, so we had our own picnic.

We sat there till the sun goes down.

Again.

Hani

The angle is abit not right. lol.

Cropped the legs, for some decency. Haha. We were like lying down on that orange 'slide' like some kids.

Again, the emphasis of the picture: STARBUCKS drinks.

Now, Look at all the failed attempts, in random order of jumpshots, becasue I'm really tired to sequence the pics:

#10 SUCCESS!

I wonder if i missed uploading anymore fo the failed jumpshots.
Mr Kobi was obviously the photographer.

Classic: In the lavatory
Again: reflections.

Yes, It is Jessica.

Damnit. JessicaTanShiYu refused to let me pose with my steak because I posed with the fries. There's no pic of my steak :(

Dinner at Fig&Olive.

Whatever this means, Hitler?

MRT was packed like DNA packing.

Obviously I look shagged.

People used to say we look alike.

Aeryn. Candid

Shoes, which is mine?

Caramel FRAPP is LOVE <3

Nice scenery.

The star is shining on me. as if.

Sexy?

Waiting for Qishan, and resting my hurting poor feet.

Can't think of a caption.

Celeste Chng. haha, she hates it when i call the full name.

AERYANNA/ADILLA

Bluek!

You can't see half of my face. Guess where are we at?
Its directly outside the ~~sex~~ toy shop in Bugis.

I think you're tired to look at my face.

Finally, done.

This took a loooooooooooooooong time to load.
I'm sorry to bore you with all the photos, not that yours truly is anywhere near the word photogenic anyway. Friday was spent like that, as expressed in a million words by the pictures.
If Lingyi and Sarah were present, ti would have been better. Really. I had fun still, thanks guys.
I stand firm on my ground, Jessica likes to abuse her size on me. HAHAHA. always grab my neck and 'threaten' me. Bluek.

2008-03-18T20:44:00.000+08:00

Wooohooo. Still breathing.
ONE MORE PAPER LEFT.

bless me.

2008-03-15T20:08:00.001+08:00

Sorry, I won't be updated although I'm tempted to, not that there's anything exceptionally interesting in my forever mundane life.

I'm going to charge your memories rent, they have been lurking in my heart for too long <3

2008-03-12T00:35:00.009+08:00

I woke up early again to go to Science Centerzzzz.
I walked to Science Center from JE Mrt in less than 10minutes, whoo. Isee calf muscles hardening. Just when I thought I'm late, which I always am(haha), they said its starting at 10am. omgzzzzz, 1hour later.

Thankfully, we didn't really start at 10am, we went in soon after everyone arrived. DNA electrophoresis is coooool (:

I thought it was gonna be a total waste of time, but atleast it
gave me a clearer understanding of the latest chapter we're learning right now.

Lab-coats are cool, minus the fact that I look like a puffed up mouse here. It's as if someone just pumped me with helium gas. aaaaaaaaaaaah. I need to exercise.

Nice colours aye (:
We had nothing better to do, and there was a conveniently huge mirror outside the lavatory.

Look, those are our DNA, staiend with err ethedium bromide. It is only inner cheek cells DNA, the whoel process of acquring our own cells is a little bluek, but I liked the whole experiment.

I'm a homozygous dominant, I have Alu elements in me. hoho.
Felicia kind of lost her DNA during the transferring process, hence she can't see her DNA results.

I scribbled this nonsense last Thursday because I was in random angry mood, very infuriated in fact, and I don't know why. Angry for no particular reason, being a bitch.

every little thing just added to my anger.

I am so sad :(
He was at Bugis on Sunday, but I didn't go.
Damn the education system.

Screw the distorted alignment. Sorry, the photos are not not neatly displayed.

2008-03-10T20:12:00.002+08:00

I'm super fickle minded so I decided to update again.
I realise there are afew unknowns in my friendster list of friends. lol.

I'm missing alot of people, and I saw this album of photos of us in Home Econs lesson in sec2.
I forgot when I took those pictures, but it certainly brought OLDSCHOOL memories.
We look totally errr budak-budak and errr nerdy. (:
There's this photo of me and Atiqah, and I was holding a knife.
Lmao, its too unglam to be displayed here. Heh.
I officially miss Atiqah, the whole of 2/1 and Ms Tan.
I remember Sunny's lameness when I see the Total Defence advert his team from JJ won.
I recalled those days in Maths class, when we got Mrs Lee so angry that she stormed out, and we could still rejoice. Notorious aye, but we had fun.
I remember Fad falling asleep, and Engtong going "all eyes on fadhilah" HAHAAHAHA
I didn't forget that Junhao was always called a gay.
I miss the sitting arrangement, the 6 people: me, Atiqah, Fad, Sunny, Zach& Josiah.
I miss hearing that clapping of whatever the rhythm the 2/1 peeps always did.
I miss getting the grades I used to get.
I miss having people like Fat,Sabrina and Nafisa in class.
I miss giving Amelia prank calls in class. hoho.

In conclusion, I'm just looking back, and missing everyone.
All the selenge days. (:

2008-03-10T20:07:00.000+08:00

I was arguing with my brother about the beret, which side it should be slanted to.
Apparently he forgot which is his right and left -.-
It was so dumb, cos I was insisting that it's slanted towards the left, duh, but he insist that his Sergeant says that its towards the left when the badge is supposed to be on the left. Anyhow, his imagination made us laugh like idiots. Imagine falling in with the beret terbalik. It isn't exactly funny, maybe just my brother's way of explaining. Or my brain was switched off.

Common Test is coming. raaaaaaah.
I will be at the Science Centre tomorrow for BIO, doing some hands on stuffs to make understand the chapters better. WONDERFUL. wow.

2008-03-08T02:00:00.003+08:00

I'm happy with an A for MT.
I'm very thankful for it.

Congrats to all who did well,
to those who didn't get the grade you wanted,
don't worry, there are other subjects to excel in.
Cheer up (:

PE on thursday was FUN with a capital F.
i joined in to play Captain's Ball, even though
I have a tendency to dodge the ball whenever it comes in my direction.
Yea, I'm that good with ball games. The game was so hilarious, it should be called
"SCREAMING captains ball" We were all screaming even before the ball comes.
I tried to defend, tried to, and ended up doing ballet, turning around to block the ball.
I swear its super unglam and it looked so silly, but heck, I had fun.
Everyone laughed so hard, even their intestines were laughing i bet.
That pretty sums u the first full captains ball game I had in my life.

A little pathetic I know, 18years old, and 1 game of volleyball.
Oh well, everyone's different.

GP paper today was... very historical.
Its all about memorials and how we are building it merely for our benefit
simply because we are sickos who find joy in feeling sad over nothing.
Paradoxical truth. We feel the grieve for the victims of war, yet they are not related to us,
we just liked the feeling of the sadness and the atmosphere.
It sounds pretty weird and psychotic. Life's absurd sometimes.

I have nothing much to say.
Good morning to all (:

2008-03-05T22:23:00.002+08:00

Although we kind of dread GP at times,
I can't deny that this is very much inspiring.
Oh well, I guess most of us live for the sake of living,
we are too practical. Ask anyone on the streets, about their dreams/ambitions.
You'll get typical answers - have a career, marry, start a family.
A minority may mention 'World Peace'
Its too easy to say, to declare that you wish for World Peace,
but are you doing anything to achieve it?

People make a fuss over sunbaked cheeks, dark skin, and mosquito bites.
Yet, at some corners of the world, people don't even get proper meals.
The world is imbalanced to create to create a balance. Figure it out.

If a mirror could reflect your values,
would you see a cluttered amount of values reflected or nothing?

I don't have a powerful vocab knowledge to make my point clear,
these videos are just worth watching.
Ignorance may not be a bliss always.

PS:
HAPPY belated BIRTHDAY SABRINA!
You have holidays until October, damnit. Unfair.
Enjoy yous days working at Night Safari,
and update me on thee potentials. Hehehehe.
I think your ears are tired listening to me just now (:

2008-03-02T15:12:00.002+08:00

2008-03-02T01:50:00.003+08:00

Credits to: deviantart.com

Yes, I'm still awake.
Few weeks back, we did a personality test during assembly, I'm a Feeling person.
That means, I'm easily affected. A little irony since, I'm the forever-angry-not-happy-cursing-always person, but yeah,
I'm a feeling person.

My brain decided to zonk out today, and my mood sinks to the bottom of the ocean. deprived. Sometimes growing up is tiring, there's always something, somehow not right.
Today is a good day to cry. People don't choose a day to cry, my brain thinks otherwise.

Instead of doing hw, I went over the the other room, and took out the old albums.
I laughed looking at those pictures that brings everlasting memories of family and friends.
I giggled when I saw how my brother grew thinner when he was a toddler, and practically multiplied to his current size. I smiled looking at those straight-bangs I had over my forehead since young.

It wasn't the time to reminisce but it was definitely more enriching.
Perhaps, I get amused by the smallest things on earth,
as it camouflages the pile of worries& negative thoughts in me.
Perhaps, it was the only route to joy, cheap simple short-lived joy, for the everlasting,priceless ones are way beyond my horizon. Never gonna be mine, its way beyond my reach.

Maybe, if our brains are not connected to our hearts, or simply devoid of emotions, life will be much simpler. It'll be systematic and rigid. We'll do what we have to do regardless of the circumstances, because, it is always feelings and conscience leading the way, or even obstruct it.
And, every human being has a heart to feel, and a brain to think.
Figure life out, and tell me.

Enough of senseless typing for now.

2008-03-01T14:38:00.002+08:00

My final SPA calculations answer was wrong.
I'm so smart, I used the mass value instead of the amount value.
Lets just hope that I'll get a level7 for skillC.

Friday was X-country, and I was one of the officials -.-
Didn't get to run. I was busy with the attendance list and the medals.
Watching the X-country was quite exciting, Weidi came in FIRST. yay.
Weimun came in third. S09 has 3 fast runners (:
There were afew winners who were ex-Jss students. haha.
I was in a hyper mood, but idk why. Whoo. Thats minus the part when 'ahsu' not real name asked for my help. -.- Its always the same kind of stuff. People need to learn to be conscious. Learn about manners,social ettiquottes,attitude. Ijusthatethatfkingfacebloodyannoying

I was supposed to go to Vivo but I am energyless, seriously.
Yet, at the same time, I wanna watch a movie so badly. argh.
I wanna wanna watch a movie. urghurghurgh. Any nice movie, I know I can watch Juno online but i wanna watch it in the movies, or any horror/funny movies.

Again and again, compared and compared.
ugliness undefined. Whats with the chase for prefection.
The only aspect that is available for the opportunity to surpass and shine,
seems to be eroding. The opportunity is shriking, if only its size is tangible.

Idk why I'm still exhausted when I had a long sleep ytrd.
I need energyenergy.

Ifoundcandy (:

Qn: Why people in China seldom use the phone?

I shall post the answer next time.

#370

2008-02-27T19:50:00.002+08:00

What is blogging the day before Chem SPA?
What is talking like this?
What is failing freaking GP Compre test?

random things today:

I sat next to the very same Auntie again in 242 today, just like yesterday.
I took the same 172 bus with the same Uncle I always take 172 with in the morning. haha.
An owner just had to unleash his dog and make walk the long way to my block because the dog was running everywhere.
COMMON TEST is coming and March hols seems to be occupied.

Isit time is not enough?
Haha. I know its irritating, but people in school talk like that.
"Isit I very tired?"
"What is I come than finish?"
From Singlish, to improper grammar, we have unique students in Singapore (:

2008-02-25T19:18:00.002+08:00

A. List seven habits/quirks/facts about yourself.
B. Tag seven people to do the same.
C. Do not tag the person who tagged you or say that you tag "whoever wants to do it".

1. I don't drink green tea because I think it sucks
2. I absolutely definitely suck at self description.
3. I don't think I make a good friend because I don't have much time for them nowadays, not that I want to. Its something called school.
4. People think that I'm arrogant/aloof, because at times, I don't talk/smile.
5. I laugh at the slightest things possible
6. I curse/swear/mention vulgarities alot.
7. I have a thing for observation, I see the smallest detail of every single thing.

Tagged:
1. Yingmin
2. Sarah
3. Hira
4. Husii
5. Raihan
6. Amelia
7. Jessica

I survived today.
The Econs test, the Chem Quiz, the Bio test(kind of hopeless but yeah), maths tut+lect, bio tut.

Growing up is hard.

Quotes:
“Perhaps they are not stars, but rather openings in heaven where the love of our lost ones pours through and shines down upon us to let us know they are happy.”

“If the people we love are stolen from us, the way to have them live on is to never stop loving them. Buildings burn, people die, but real love is forever.”

I'm posting any random quotes I find on the net, some of them are just so nice.
Its not realted/created by me, of course. Like duhh.

Anyway, Lets stay positive. Common tests are approaching. Whoo.
I will survive.

2008-02-24T15:14:00.003+08:00

I think I know why am I here, or rather,
how did i get here.
I think I know why I'm feeling this way.

It was the unconditional support that I had, the encouragement, the sharing, everything,
which I lost. Oh well, perhaps, an exchanges of words/thoughts once in awhile,
would help.

Adolescent angst. There is always something that is not right, everytime.
Its part of growing up i guess.

A Walk to Remember:
love is always patient and kind,
it is never jealous.
love is never boastful or conceited
it is never rude or selfish,
it does not take offense and it is not resentful...

2008-02-24T00:23:00.003+08:00

It became my escapade from reality.
This movies makes us feel the warmth within.

Definitely worth watching a million times (:
A chat with an old friend adds to the warmth within.

Quotes:

Its hard for you to wait around for something
that may never happen,
but its even harder to give up;
especially when its everything
you ever wanted - but i did it.

Realising you cannot retain the mind of the past, let go of haggling.
Realising you cannot hold on to the mind of the present, let go of grasping.
Realising you cannot attain the mind of the future, let go of expecting.
In this way, you let go of all time, you free yourself from time.

i'm going to start charging your memories rent, they've been living in my heart for far too long.

2008-02-21T18:59:00.003+08:00

Wonderful events coming up:

1. Econs Case Study Test (Monday)
2. Chem Quiz (Monday)
3. Biology Test (Monday)
4. GP Compre Test (Wednesday)
5. CHEM SPA (Thursday)
6. Maths Test (Friday)
7. Cross-country (Friday)
8. Release of Alevel results(MT results for me - idk the date)
9. Common Test aka EXAM (7 March - GP)
10. Common Test (17-20March: All papers)

Life's beautiful right? Lets all swim in the pool of notes.

[Rant]
I have no idea how I survived 8weeks of school and I dunno how i will live for the next 9months.
Its crazycrazycrazy. Raaaaaaaaaaah. I must do this. I want to do this.
but, heck. I want to be given the energy to not Sleep for maybe 24x5=120hours.
I'm falling asleep earlier these days, because my body is overwhelmed with ultimate exhaustion, idk why. fkfkfkfk. Evenavectorstutorialwasntuptostandard. Biobiobio. Let's get all the facts of organisation of eukaryotes&rokaryotes genome into my BRAIN. please work dear brain.
plsplspls, i need to have more energy. I need to fking lose weight(no link to studies but yeah.
Needencouragementmotivationdeterminationpeserverancehelpfaith. how do i get thru this.
chapters by chapters flying past. [/Rant]

Happy or sad, each day still passes by, so smile like this cute little boy (:

As every minute passes, you're one minute further from your birth, and one minute closer to your death. Treasure every 1440minutes you have in a day.

2008-02-16T23:09:00.009+08:00

I woke up before 6am on a SATURDAY morning,
had second thoughts of going. I was still exhausted and needed much rest,
but I still went to support the squad. It was worthwhile, indeed. (:

2years after that very day, I stepped into the same paradeground,
this time, as a supporter.

( Bendemeer Sec)

We were the first runner-up for West District then,
and again, we were crowned the first-runner up for West District today, in 2008.
In 2006, there was ONLY standard drills, now, there's ONLY fancy drills category.
The only difference was, we got into the second round. Yes, we did.

I felt that the format of the competition was weird, the top8 schools based on merit
from the preliminary round would go on to the final round to compete against each other
for the final judging. They had to perform/execute their drills twice, just like dancing an item twice. They entire squad broke down, tears flowing down nonstop.

There was a change of judges, this time, there was 4 judges, each a high-ranking official
representing the big uniformed groups; NCC, NPCC, RedCross, St John's.
I personally felt it was a better round, but I shall not elaborate.

After much awaiting, the prize presentation ceremony came.
My stakes weren't high, because we don't know what the judges are looking for.
but, the awards were given slowly, one by one, and none was for us,
we were the CHAMPIONS of the NATIONAL FOOTDRILL COMPETITION =D
congratulations dearies.

Congrats Naf, you make a good choreographer (:

Congrats Syaf, the unit under your care braved through the competition, and emerged victorious (:

Congrats DeRong, your commands were fierce and smart, you gave a good first impression to the judges and audience. You did it (:

Congrats to Squad16/E and to everyone else who contributed and help throughout the preparation process. You guys did an excellent job, CONGRATULATIONS once again (:

Some pictures:

Already so happy after the very first round (:

The precious plate.

Yeah!

The dear juniors beaming with joy (:

Looooong table at KFC. Meal after victory.

NafThe Commander and the trophies. I look weird/fat.
I want the lanyard.......

Valtentines Day:

All the girls in class got a rose, thanks to the thoughtful classmates.
Nice pic isn't it?

RANDOM.The supposedly Romantic Chem Prac we did on Valentines Day.

Its 17th Feb. HAPPY BIRTHDAY OZY! I hope you'll get the course you want in poly. Have a great great year ahead You'll always be part of s09 (:

The failure remains, for time cannot turn back.
My everything is absolutely nothing.
Perhaps the reason why I am easily amused at little little things,
is because I don't get to laugh at real joy/success/happiness.

2008-02-13T20:27:00.001+08:00

Happy advanced Valentines everyone.

Happy advanced sweet 17th birthday Anati!
I haven't seen you for like forever, have a blessed birthday,
showered with love and happiness.
TakeCare and hopefully, See you soon (=

2008-02-12T23:32:00.000+08:00

What Adilla Binte Adam Means

You are usually the best at everything ... you strive for perfection.
You are confident, authoritative, and aggressive.
You have the classic "Type A" personality.

You are balanced, orderly, and organized. You like your ducks in a row.
You are powerful and competent, especially in the workplace.
People can see you as stubborn and headstrong. You definitely have a dominant personality.

You tend to be pretty tightly wound. It's easy to get you excited... which can be a good or bad thing.
You have a lot of enthusiasm, but it fades rather quickly. You don't stick with any one thing for very long.
You have the drive to accomplish a lot in a short amount of time. Your biggest problem is making sure you finish the projects you start.

You are relaxed, chill, and very likely to go with the flow.
You are light hearted and accepting. You don't get worked up easily.
Well adjusted and incredibly happy, many people wonder what your secret to life is.

You are full of energy. You are spirited and boisterous.
You are bold and daring. You are willing to do some pretty outrageous things.
Your high energy sometimes gets you in trouble. You can have a pretty bad temper at times.

You are very intuitive and wise. You understand the world better than most people.
You also have a very active imagination. You often get carried away with your thoughts.
You are prone to a little paranoia and jealousy. You sometimes go overboard in interpreting signals.

You are a seeker. You often find yourself restless - and you have a lot of questions about life.
You tend to travel often, to fairly random locations. You're most comfortable when you're far away from home.
You are quite passionate and easily tempted. Your impulses sometimes get you into trouble.

You are friendly, charming, and warm. You get along with almost everyone.
You work hard not to rock the boat. Your easy going attitude brings people together.
At times, you can be a little flaky and irresponsible. But for the important things, you pull it together.

You are confident, self assured, and capable. You are not easily intimidated.
You master any and all skills easily. You don't have to work hard for what you want.
You make your life out to be exactly how you want it. And you'll knock down anyone who gets in your way!

What's Your Name's Hidden Meaning?

I'm completely zombified now.
If Deb didn't ask me about the GP presentation, I'll totally forget about it.
fck.Ihavetodoresearchonabortion.fck.imtired.initiallyhadalottoblogaboutbutfck
there'shwfck.

My right eye is hurting, due to my never-ending rubbing since
the start of the day. Its like itchy, and irritating.

I've been getting mosquito bites very often these days.
It must be the high sugar content in my blood due to the manymanymany sweets I consume.

I'm superdupertired.

2008-02-11T19:11:00.000+08:00

Scene at the playground. My nephews and nieces.

Haha. Retarded?

I just felt like putting this up.

Oh freak. I forgot this dear grand-nephew's name. Lol.

Eric. The birthday boy.

Firhad. He is so chubby... and cute. awwww.

I love all of them. Cute little ones. Eric, is err exercising?

Left: Sufyan Right: Addli (aka the brother)
Relationship: Nephew and Uncle.
As you can see, the family tree is kind of urm weird?
I belong to the 2nd generation but I arrived LATE into this world.
That explains why I'm a GrandAunt at 17.

He was poking the cake, and licking the cream. (=

Haha. He's sad because there's cream on his face.
He couldn't wait to eat his cake.

I finally got a nice decent pic, he was running away me all the time.

I swear I feel fat.

Eric<3

Sorry for the weird sequence of pictures and some blurry shots.
I was actually at the playground with them, and kind of urm,
trying to join in the fun. Haha. A tad too old for playgrounds I know.
I'm rushing for dinner now.... the clock is ticking.

I saw WeiJian today... buying....
Hehehe. I'm gonna do my research. LOL.

2008-02-10T14:20:00.000+08:00

I'll be like this by the time common test comes.

Sarah's, Celeste's, Jessica's b-e-a-u-t-i-f-u-l legs

now its with my legs.

Shagged and tired.

Hoho. Sun-baked. It was a very very sunny day.

My love for you has never faded, dear candy floss (:

Hah. Not much introduction needed. This is Jessica.

We've come a long way. 6years...

We grew... side by side...

Although, I may be a bitch, and make stupid jokes/remarks, u guys know I don't mean it.

I'm officially dark-er and fatter. LOL.
500words reflection for GP is nuts.

I end up talking crap with the most random people online (eg. Hadi, Weijian etc)
Slept at 4+
I'm such a good student, ain't I?

2008-02-10T00:42:00.000+08:00

What a day.
Adilla(S), Sarah(M), Jess(XL) Lightbulbs. Hahahaha.
More photos tmr (:

Quotes I'm loving:

I guess everyone has their reasons for keeping people away, an instinct to protect yourself from getting hurt. It's part of human nature

I hope that someday, somebody wants to hold you for twenty minutes straight,
and that's all they do. They don't pull away. They don't look at your face, they don't try to kiss you. All they do is wrap you up in their arms, without an ounce of selfishness in it.

(My hair is long -.-)

2008-02-09T00:51:00.000+08:00

Happy 18th Birthday to Aeryanna & Priya!
I doubt you guys will see this but I hope you guys have a great birthday (:

Quote of the day:

I don't see myself as beautiful, because I can see a lot of flaws.
People have really odd opinions.
They tell me I'm cute, as if that's
supposed to make me happy

2008-02-07T23:59:00.000+08:00

I'm TIRED.

Times really flies nowadays.
You wake up in the morning, and poof* its midnight,
and a brand new day begins.

I can't think of any particular matter to blog about.
I shall post some pictures of the little ones.

Eric!

He surely doesn't look like he's turning 3 in a few days time. Cute (:

Presenting Nina (:
I love this photo. its classic. She's actually busy meddling with my brother's hp.

Nini is going to school next year, how time flies.
She's growing, I'm aging.
I still go over to play with her, Nina and Irfan when I'm bored
or simply not in the mood for hw. Haha.

Meet the youngest - Irfan
I couldn't get a better picture because he's always crying,
cos I'm very irritating. haha. It was during kenduri, hence the mat in the background.

There's alot of hw. Raaaaaaaaah.

To Raihan: Babe, click on the words at the side for navigations.
I have a tagboard. Lol (:

2008-02-06T23:54:00.000+08:00

Look at my lunch. Yummy? It very delicious mind you (:
Although the place isn't a high end, nicely renovated place, the food rocks. Hee.
Definitely worth my money. Whoo.
The company was great too; Ika, YingMin, Keyan, Deborah, Joanne.

The CNY celebrations was awesome, the emcees are the usual funny people.
The wedding photos montage had some very beautiful photos.
Our teachers look totally different when they were younger.
I forgot to bring oranges cos Amelia decided to pon, which is equivalent to ps-ing me early in the morning. -.- I was finding a friend to go to school with and ended up forgetting my oranges.

There weren't many in casual wear today, not enthusiastic.
Oh well, perhaps they don't see the point in dressing in casual wear,
or I'm just super enthusiastic. Haha. The second reason is more likely to be true.
I hope the schoolmates can be more energetic and responsive.(no offense)

My energy is too much at times, too hyper. Nurul will definitely agree to this.
Either too much optimism or pessimism will be in me always.
My personality is errr weird? idk.

After lunch, I met Celeste to get her stuffs, some last minute shopping.
She left after purchasing her stuffs, while Ika&me resumed our window shopping. Heh.
I saw many b-e-a-u-t-i-f-u-l dresses, but I don't have the body for it. hoho.
A good reason to to get the nice and pricey dresses. (:
I left Raffles City first as Ika was meeting her friend.
I walk walk and walk, board 111 and alighted few bustops to board another bus. Sounds stupid eh. It was scorching hot, and the air con in the bus don't seem to work.
I still fell asleep peacefully anyway, and the girl next to me had to tap me awake, because she wanted to alight. Hoho. The journey in 502 all the way home was well spent. Haha.

4 days with no school. happy?
We received our angbaos for cny from the teachers. A whole list of hw to be done. Oh wow. Common test is in 4weeks time. The school cheats us. Holy common TEST is another freaking EXAM. Just call it exams for goodness sake. A 3hour TEST, oh great. What a deceiving name.

Chatting with Sarah about random stuffs, when the age issue came, and damn i feel OLD.

Think again, people our age in the past, are already married with a child perhaps.
My primary schoolmate has a daughter who'll turn 1year of age this year o.O

The emphasis is not to get married and settle down in life,
it is the fact that our teenage years are coming to an end. Gosh.
The precious gift of teenage years is the friendships we build.
Meeting these friends while growing up adds colors to the journey.

Upon maturing, people are more skeptical.
They paint a first impression on every single person they meet,
it is no longer the innocent beginning for every friendship like how it used to be.
The only constant in life is change.

To Yingmin: Cheer up kaaaaaays? (does that sounds familiar?)
Its gonna be sunshine after rain. (:

Valentine's Day is coming. Here's some nice quotes:

promise me one thing;
when you pick the boy you're gonna really be with.
promise me he's someone who respects you
& treats you well.
someone who makes your heart race
& he's someone you love.
because of who he is; not what he does.
use your head and follow your heart

"You know, sometimes I sit and think about everything we've been through and what we've done and I think that if I were to have done it with someone else, it wouldn't have meant as much."

For every girl with a broken heart, there's a boy with a glue gun

Although it's difficult today to see beyond the sorrow,
May looking back in memory help comfort you tomorrow.

Credits to: Livejournal.com

Last but not least,

HAPPY LUNAR NEEEEE-YOU YEEEEEAAAAAAAARRRRRR!
Have a wonderful year of Rat. Hee.
May you collect lots of angbaos and have many many oranges to eat (:
(don't make urself too acidic okay?)

2008-02-03T16:48:00.000+08:00

Procrastinating in progress.
Hw not done. Good job to me.

My weekend is pretty boring and empty, nothing much happened,
I was stuck at home.
Friday, however, was a busy busy day.
I forgot to bring money to school, how smart.
Thank goodness for the invention of the ATM machine,
it is very convenient in such situations.

I had school until 1.30pm, yes, an hour later than others,
because we had an extra hour of BIOLOGY tutorial.
Raaaaaaah. My brain juices were dried up by the end of the tutorial.
Organization of eukaryotes and prokaryotes genome, is killing me.
I need gloves to catch the balls. hahahaha. I have yet to digest and understand the chapter. -.-

Slacked, went to Jelapang area to eat Ice Kachang, when its pouring heavily outside.
Was drenched despite having an umbrella.
Stoytelling session with Sitt, Ika, Shiela& Fiza was good (:
Sitt's first impression of me was, 'very quiet'. HAHA.
Total opposite.

I didnt wanna attend CCA, but I went anyway.
My fickle brain always takes a long time to decide,
and by then its too late.
After CCA, was planning to head home, wrap Fadhilah's present,
before going to her house at 11pm.

My hp just had to ring when I reached CCK Mrt,
zuhui asked me to drop by Jss, they were having their footdrill camp.
I didn't want to, and I didn't plan to, but I still went.
See. I suck at making simple deicisions, making BIG decisions
are way easier. Perhaps, it is because I know where I'm heading to.

The fancy drill formation is nice, but the beat is FAST.
Hanna Montana's song, hopefully, the Champion trophy will be ours again.

I watched them train until 1015pm, before rushing home.
I didn't even have time to buy the cake, Sab had to purchase the slice of cake,
within such a short notice. Haha, Sorry. We didn't get a whole cake because
there's only 3 of us, and her family members will be asleep by then.

I was so hungry when I reached JP interchange,
very tempted to get some yummy but unhealthy food,
but I got a cup of corn only. Haha, Trying to be healthy.

I took 242 home, rushed to take thepresent and card,
chuck my beg aside, put on my slippers, and walk over to meet Sab,
went to surprise Fad (:
Yes, I was tired+hungry and I was still in school uniform.

We knocked on the door and present her the slice of cake,
and our presents. Initially we wanted to surprise at midnight but I doubt
I can wait, without falling asleep. Hoho. I was TIREDDDDD, but it was worth it.
Fadhilah's happpppy =D

I finally reached home before midnight,
got a nice refeshing bathe. yay.
instead of sleeping, I went online.

While chatting with afew people,
I went to check my hp, and somehow,
I fell asleep. Haha, pathetic.
The convos were left hanging.
Sorry guys.
The comp was on throughout the whole night.
Bravo, save the earth, waste fuels to generate electricity for people like me.

Its sunshine after rain,
I'm extremely glad this week is CNY.
Wooohoooooooooooooooo (=

2008-02-03T00:47:00.000+08:00

Happy 18th Birthday Fad!
5th wish, but i'm late by one hour. Haha.

I want to blog, but I'm super tired now.
Tomorrow (:

2008-01-28T18:51:00.000+08:00

This week is Craaaaaaaaaaaaazy.
Chemistry Test, Maths Test, Econs timed-assignment, and bio test just now.
We were given 25minutes for a 20marks test, heck,
there's 4genetic crosses plus 1.
I only realised a third page existed 3minutes before the test ended.
Obviously I threw my marks into the bin, when I knew the answers.

We run to improve our timing,
do we write to increase our speed of writting?
Well, it may work, but legs and fingers are different.
We don't get fingers muscles, do we.
For if such muscles exist, my fingers would be fat and disfigured
due to all the writting for 14years since kindergarten.
I neeeed to write FASTER.

This is the 18th year of life.
A milestone for many.
For me, it is the Alevels.

JC may be known as living hell to some,
a breeze to others. How I wished i was the latter.
At 16, it was the Olevels. Now its the As.
I must get through this.

I don't wish to be disappointed again when I see my results,
like how shattered I felt when I received my Olvl results.
There's nothing I want more than to survive this year,
and ace the As. This is my choice, where I want to be.
I knew it won't be easy, neither did I expected it to be this tedious.

Oh well, scrap the negativity for now,
I shall turn into my normal self =D
Lets get through this week, and look forward to the next. CNY!

Come rain, come shine, a day still passes by.

When we want something,
consciously / subconsciously,
the world will evolve and adapt to the way we want it to be.
And so, I want gooooooood grades. (: Pretty please....

Everything comes with a price,
and school is obviously taking every possible bit of my social life.
The expencise cost of pursuing your aspirations.
Friends, all of you are greatly missed...

2008-01-27T16:14:00.000+08:00

I can't view my blog, I can only update. hohoho.

My fickle-mindedness is very serious. Hahaha.

At home, I'll ask Adi or my mom/dad for their opinions on err, maybe which color of clothings looks nicer, when I want to buy online.

I'll ask Amelia also. HAHAHAHAAHAHA.

Amelia refused to buy stuffs for me cos she knows I'm picky. LOL

My brain needs to be more decisive.

Going to tuition isn't as bad.

First, I met this girl who's from Juying Primary, we recognise each other.

She knows my name but I forgot hers.

Thats wierd considering how my brain remembers the most knitty-gritty details of everything.

Today, I met LimWeiJie. Hahahaha. I remember his full name, and the fact that he's a left hander. See, my brain's wierd. He's working partime now, and in Poly.

Raaaaaaah. Now I'm missing my primary school mates.

Gosh. The only person I contact quite often is Aqilah.

(ooops, I've yet to return her scarf)

Ahhhhhh. I miss the crazy primary school days,

and getting nice grades, and being angry for getting 89/100. Lol

If it happens now, I'll be estatic,overjoyed,hyper,gay. hahaha.

Can we have a 6B reunion?

Not forgetting a 2/1 reunion?

And yes, 4/4 reunion?

Hmmm, and meet up with the fiknatics?

Hahahaha. Adilla is dreaming.

At the rate school's going, I doubt I have time to spare.

Life's pathetic.

2009 will be a good year =D

Credits to: i_heart_aiba.lj.com

Credits to : http://community.livejournal.com/monkeybutticons/612.html

No ripping.

2008-01-27T02:19:00.000+08:00

I'm TIRED.

2008-01-22T22:38:00.000+08:00

Lets face it, there aren't many happily-ever-after in reality.
Its like watching a drama, with domestic issues.
I changed my stand, I'm happy enough on my own.

Today was such a tiring day,
I've got a headache, I felt so so exhausted.
My leg muscles are still aching.
The week has just started, and I'm already lethargic.

There's Econs test on Friday. wow.
I seriously thought it was next week. -.-

What lies beyond the horizon?
What is there at the end of the rainbow?
Will we even get there to find these answers?
Life is full of uncertainty.

You can plan a hundred years ahead,
and work hard, but you cannot stop the obstacles from coming.
You can only overcome them, with courage.

I'm TIRED, and I have unfinished hw.
It is only week 4 of school.
Hocus Pocus FOCUS FOCUS FOCUS

2008-01-20T21:36:00.000+08:00

I miss my nieces and nephew.
Hira, Get Well soooon! TakeCare (:
This is the silver mirror we got during chem prac. Beautiful.
I mixed these 2 up. Haha. Too many chemicals and not-so-nice smell.
There's a new drama coming up. Whoo.

My leg muscles are still aching from PE. I need to be more active.

2008-01-19T22:51:00.000+08:00

Window shopping online is driving me nuts,
so many nice stuffs to look at, so tempting to buy. hoho.
Livejournal rocks. heh.

Romantic Princess is gonna be on ChannelU. whoo (:
I'm in a random mooooooood.

I met Zuhui otw back to Jss, wasn't planned. haha.
Finally saw the incomplete fancy drills, it was quite nice.
The sec1 intake this year is very little, maybe they should set a minimum number of intake every year. Had dinner at KFC, crapped as usual, I was very tired by then.
BUT, all the nonsensical,sarcastic,idiotic remarks/jokes gave me energy. haha.
I miss the carefree life in sec sch, such as not fretting about studies 24/7 or hw, but I don't miss the err rules and regulations. I prefer the jc rules and regulations, not as rigid.

Chem prac was err messy, i guess.
All the chemicals were very strong smelling, bleah.
I was trying to complete the experiments quickly, and ended up using the wrong reagent -.-
I had to redo the experiment. hoho. Wearing the rubber gloves made us look like we're going for some operation, future doctors maybe? haha.

I can't continue blogging, I'm busy online shopping. HAHA.
Hopeless case as usual =D
Bye!

What lies beyond the Horizon?

2008-01-13T22:16:00.000+08:00

I went for Jamilah's birthday celebration today.
Sempat eh, when I have unfinished hw to do.
Had fun as usual (:
Happy Birthday Jamilah!
I don't have any photos with me as usual. heh.

I finally finished watching Romantic Princess.
Whooo. The ending was urm, sweet, abrupt, and hanging.
Airport kissing scene, with many unanswered questions.
Nonetheless, it is still loved! hah. I enjoyed watching it.

There's Deal Or No Deal Hunks Special this week. Lol.
Watch if you're free. Its might be more interesting
looking at guys with briefcase than sexy girls.

I need to keep going on.
Another school week is here,
weekends becomes a treasure nowadays.
Hocus Pocus Focus Focus Focus.

I wanna swap places with my bro and go to Jss.

I'm in the mood for beautiful quotes again!
Here goes....

Never ignore a gut feeling,
but never believe that it's enough

The minute you settle for less than you deserve,
you get even less than you settled for.
Don’t be afraid to believe that you can have
what you want & have what you deserve

the reason why everyone wants to find love,
is because its the closest thing to real magic
that any of us will ever experience

they still want each other,
they still need each other more than anything in the world.
they're just taking a long time to figure it all out <3

REPLIES:

Jess - HAHA. Chill la.

Hira - Haha, Hira the doctor LOVE, omg i miss you la, and everyone else!

Little Miss Sunshine - Mestilah simpan, why would i throw it away? I still have some stuffs from pri sch times still (: The memories are treasured.

Atiq - YES, I miss sec sch ALOT. The GILER times and all. Good job emcee!

2008-01-10T22:39:00.000+08:00

Carrying out a task, which we don't wish to
makes life miserable, isn't it?
Acting against our own will, brings about a pricking pain to our soul.
Nobody likes to be coerced to do anything.
We want/need our freedom.

Maybe it is the surroundings we grew up in,
there is a system to everything,
our days are always so busy, that a free and easy day seems wrong.

Everyone is preoccupied with everything,
they don't realise, it is nothing.
The education, the job, the money, the clothes, the house, the car,
what can these be used for, when you feel empty within?

Come rain or shine, the day still passes by.

My thoughts are getting more complicated nowadays.

Adilla has been eating way too much sweets nowadays.
so hello to err, glucose. haha.
I can't think of anything to type now. Dang.
I'm proud of my godbrother. haha.

ps: The Computer/Internet is a frigging distraction.

2008-01-09T23:33:00.000+08:00

I'm Sleepy and tired.
Raaaaaaaaaaaaah.

Fahrenheit makes me happy, WuChun makes me happier. HAHA.
I'm a gone-case.

No ripping of this photo.
Fahrenheit's gonna have a concert in SG in Dec. yay.
Watching dramas can change my mood adversely.
The golden Path makes me fed up,
the plot is very sadist. Raaaaaaaaaaaaah.

Random quote:
In Maths, 1+1=2
In Love, 1+1=1, figure it out (:

Nowadays people are too preoccupied with their own lives that
they often neglect the people around them.
Some would even go against their conscience to achieve their dreams.
Don't you think that Success and wealth achieved through wrongful acts,
are meaningless?
Wrongful acts may not be crimes, but as long as it opposes your conscience,
it is not worthwhile. Wealth is just a worldly possesion, what matters more?
Relationships? Health? Honesty? Moral values? or Money?

Oh well, i'm just having some random thoughts in my mind.
Being tired + having hw to do + sleepy + moodswings = I dunno what.

Weekends, please come.
Tests, please go away. =D

Have a good day ahead people!

Replies:

Atiqah - i wanna go! but, I have cca! pagi2 memang takde kerje pe.

Raihan - I'm fine babe =D And yeah, i walk a long distance to the bustop, and to school. sad case, haha

2008-01-06T03:11:00.000+08:00

So far, the first week of school
wasn't that bad i guess.

I've got 4 new teachers,
and I don't really like the Bio teacher.
I prefer Ms Lim MORE.
I was falling asleep throughout the bio lecture on friday.
sheeesh. Ms Lim's lectures/tutorials were much more interesting.

I had nothing better to do than to attempt
to snap photos of my journey to school.
I stopped snapping halfway because the distance
I walked to school was way to long -.-

The Badminton court was very dark still.

Through the blocks.

Traffic Light.

Walking and walking still.

Next to the big Green field.

Reaching Amelia's block.

The road was kind of empty.
This is Super Lame, but I had nothing better to do on the first
morning to school. heh.
And, I still have to walk along a canal/ big drain after crossing the road. haha.

On Wednesday/first day of school,
I met wierdo no1.
Sitt, Ika, Nurul & me were at the bustop waiting for 190,
when this wierd sec1 boy(i dont think he's sec 2), came and sat,
near the area we were standing at.
He started asking Ika & Sitt,
"You got bf anot? If you don't have, I can give you my korkor"
hahahahaha. I couldn't be bothered to entertain such people.
He asked again, " You got hp anot? Is that your hp?"
He was asking Ika if her mp4 was her hp O.o

When the bus finally came, we board the bus,
Sitt and me sat at the 2seats which had another 2seats facing us
so that the 4 of us could chat, BUT,
that boy had to sit in front of me. wth.

He even showed me some dumb animated hamtaro icon in his hp,
and started singing along to some chinese song he played on his hp.
It was freaking wierd, and thank goodness he didnt followed us when
we alight at the interchange.

We went to Bugis to collect Nurul's sandals,
which she bought online from some guy on Ebay.
Haha, 4college girls sitting at Gateway West building is another not-so-normal thing.

Nice lobby

The opposite building is called Gateway EAST.
I don't know why there isn't North and South also. =P

Nice fountain at the pick-up point.

Bright sunny Wednesday.

Arab Street.

Nak pergi makan.

Delicious. I love the prata, its so crispy.

And, we finsihed it all.

We ate at ZamZam. whoo.
The prata and murtabak was yummmy =D

On the way home, we met wierdo no2 in the Mrt.
It was this guy, who seemed to ba from another JC.
He asked Sitt if she could let him sit, and said that
he was just discharged from the hospital the day before.
He didn't appear dangerous, haha. Just another wierd incident.

Also, there were few ladies standing near our seat in the Mrt,
who was obviously listening to our conversation.
She was literally looking and listening. Oh well,
I jsut thougth that she could have listened without looking
at us, literally.

On thursday, we had PE.
The holidays certainly made us a little fatter, and weaker.
Everyone was trying very hard to run within the given time limit.
I ran 4rounds only, I think, and my legs are aching still.

In the 190 bus, we met 2 senior citizens,
whom were very much unhappy that we were chatting in the bus.
One of the them stared and coughed,
and made some remarks in Mandarin/hokkien or whatever langauge it was.
He even coughed as a signal to get down the bus(?)
That was wierdo no.3.

By the time, I reached BoonLay Mrt with Ika,
it was almost 6pm, it was very crowded.
When we were descending the stairs to get to the interchange,
I moved to the side, so that I can get down faster,
without knocking against the people coming up,
when suddenly,
this indian lady, stopped right in front of me and said,
"Didn't you see me coming?"
I was kind of lost, a little shock, which was good,
because i ignored her and just move aside to walk away.
Wierdo no4, very irritating.

If only my brain responded faster,
she would have got it.
I would have used all the $*&!#@ on her.
Wth. The bloody stairs and walkway isnt yours.

I don't remember meeting anymore wierdos on Friday onwards.
Haha. What a week. New school year, new teachers,
more pressure, less sleep, wierd people.

Now that I'm out early everyday,
I think we really should have a Mandi campaign. Hahaha.

GP is becoming errr, more philosophical.
Right on the very first day, we had to do some powerpoint slides to
present on the next day.
My question was: How do you know what is right and wrong? -.-

I missed Jss Caa Display, because I couldnt wake up on time.
Raaaah. Jiayi, Serlina & weeHao's in PJ for PAE. haha.

When school commences, life becomes dull.
So pathetic.
But, looking on the bright side,
we'll have Loooong holidays after this year (:

I looked through old cards and photos, and found this.
Aqilah gave me this birthday card in Pri6, i think.
It has cute stickers inside, and kept in good condition.
Taking a walk down memory lane, brightens my day.

I'm tired, and should be Sleeping NOW.

Credits goeshere

No ripping. I didn't make these icons, but i lke it.

Have a Good Sunday Morning!

Replies:

SV - yup sure, THANKS!
yan - Thank so much! I will do my job when i can =D

2008-01-02T23:25:00.000+08:00

First day of school was Overwhelming.

I wanna rant, but I shouldn't.

Wish me Luck.

TakeCare (:

2008-01-01T22:22:00.000+08:00

I'll be awake before the sun rises. hoho.

Lets welcome S-C-H-O-O-L.
Gosh. I will get through this...

Aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah.
Its back to morning walks of approximately 3km or more
everyday to school.

I'm not done watching my dramas.

This makes me happy ^^

Tag Replies:
Yan - HAPPY NEW YEAR TO YOU TOO! (:
HappyMeal - Hey there! Happy New Year to you too! tkc!
Amelia - Yupyup, tmr i show you =D
Luqman - Happy new year Luqman!
Hira - Haha, Lawa la ramut awak tu. Happy new year babe! <3
Iffa - Gosh, ya, we havent chat for sometime. Miss ya lots, happy new year! tkc
Sabrina - HAHAHA. I know you dont like posing for pics, so I post those that i took long ago =P Keep in touch, I will miss 'storytelling sessions' with you. Heh.
Husii - It was so funny la, we were like opposite and wasting our smses. May our friendship lasts through time =D The picnic was fun kan. <3 Lets chiong this year together!

I shall sleep earlier today since there's school tmr.
Raaaah.

2008-01-01T01:04:00.000+08:00

HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYONE!
2007 has left many fond memories whihc will never be forgotten.
It has chandged my life quite abit.
I've met many new people and grew individually.
Hopefully, this year will be just as wonderful.

Lets do some back-tracking:

This was taken on 1st January 2007,
now I guess I'll be stuck at home on 1st January 2008,
becasue there's something called SCHOOL and HOMEWORK. Gaaaaah.

Working at Lawrys, was my first job.
I was considered lucky to get the job, thanks to Sab!

It was a real eye-opener, i saw the world at a different angle.
The environment in a high-end restaurant, the people, the colleagues, everything was new to me, a 17year old girl, who has yet to see the world.
Even though, at times, things were tough, and I felt like I couldnt take it,
I still survived! yay.
I miss those days so much, the laughters and the dirty jokes by the bussers, not forgetting - being thrown into the pool TWICE.
Even though I spend only 3months working, i'll bring this experience with me for life.

Meeting these 2 lovelies this year was GREAT.
I treasure the friendship very much, although I'll go MIA quite often due to school.
Not forgetting, my dearest artiste, Iryani (;
You guys are <3

I'm much closer to these people now.
The crazy bunch, I never have regretted meeting you all.

Random shot taken on 17Dec 2006.
He dances very well (:

When i got my results, I wasnt happy.
In fact, I was very unhappy about it.
I went to Pj with a heavy heart,
got into S05, it was miserable...
Until I transferred into S09. (:
The new year is here, lets stay together as a class,
and treasure the moments together.

I don't have a photo of my PW group,
so I'll post this. haha.
I really appreciate all the hard work by my group members.
Thanks guys.

Its a new beginning, still a long way to go.

2008 ---> ALEVELS.
School is already freaking me out,
not forgetting the fact that homework's not finished.
Bless me. Hahaha. I'll get through this.

I hope that everything will stay the same,
The friends i treasure, regardless of old or new friends,
I wish the friendship stays through time.

Have a prosperous year ahead
with joy and laughter :)

2007-12-30T00:14:00.000+08:00

I walked a total of 17093 steps today(Saturday).
Shopped for school stuffs and ate at Ramen Ten.
Yumyum. I love spicy foood, but I forgot to snap a pic of my meal.
hoho. I shall just post whatever photos are available. yay.

Fat loves bus rides, with George falling asleep next to her. haha.
174 takes a loooong time to come.

I snap this while waiting Patiently for the bus,
cars were zooooming past. Whoo!

Friday was spent catching up.
Met up with Fat, Fad & Sab.
All 3letters nicknames, so i shall include mine too. iLa. (:
We had lunch at Pizza Hut with some ~~bitching~~ random storytelling sessions,
window-shopped to let digestion occur. Heh. And, headed to Swensens for
some finger-licking dessert. My Nutty-Mighty was waay too long ans Sweet.

This girl refuses to take a pic with me. Sab!
She bought an apparel after our double meal. HAHA. I didn't say the word k =P

At Swensens, for dessert. Delicious.

She was stressed over the over subj comb choices.
The school just had to inform her at the eleventh hour, wth.
We waited for her to decide on the combination before ordering.
We're nice people kan...

Where's my order....?

The Long and the Sexy. HAHAHA.
I just realised we didnt take a photo of The Bulat & The Flat.

Taadaaa, OUR food.

And, the Fries

In the end.

The Lunch at the Hut.

They took so long to post for a pic.

See?

Sab - Fat

iLa - Fad

Fatimaaah.

(Thursday)
Window-shooped at IMM with dearest Husii & Hira.
We had the sinful cakes from Secret Recipe.

Mine's the WHITe one. Haha.

Hira said, Husii's place has batter lighting to take a picture. Haha.

Hira, the cute artist, who gave me CUTE maps and small cubic-like butter cake
from Japan. Thanks so much! (:

Husii, the latenight chatting partner, who doesnt Sleep,
and keeps throwing pillows at me. Haha.

Hira had her photochoot at the... Secret Garden with some noisy spectators, by the pond.

I ate at Banquet,Secret Recipe,Pizza Hut,Swensens,RamenTen for the past 3days.
Thats definitely not little, but perhaps its good
to enjoy the last bits of holidays, before starting a hectic year.
I will get through this.

Stay happy everyone, including friends,family, silent readers,passerbys =D
Goodnight/Goood morning!

arina

2007-12-28T01:08:00.000+08:00

Happy Birthday Arina!
Have a blessed year ahead,
filled with joy & laughter,
and the best for everything (: